RANT.
so i'm extremely pissed off right now because, why yes, nothing seems to be going just right anymore. it's a week before prom and as much as i say i don't care about prom because its no big deal and that i'm perfectly fine with how it's working out i'm really not. i'm actually really upset that he's not going. and i'm upset that he didn't make a fucking effort. and i'm upset that i have NO ONE to fucking go to prom with now. so whatever. i honestly don't want to go at this point because i'm just not feeling it. i'm too fed up with prom and everything that goes along with it. i don't want to see fucking couples dancing because honestly i'll probably just get extremely annoyed/upset and i don't even want to deal with it. i have no one to ask because a. its too short notice and b. who can i ask? everyone has a date. so whatever. fuck prom. fuck after prom. i'm too fucking busy reminding people every damn day that they owe me fucking money when i should be worrying about me and what i need to personally get done for prom. there's too much going on, way too much stress, and i just hate everything right now. i need more fucking yoga classes to chill the hell out and just relax but its like the second i relax something fucking slaps me in the face and just pisses me off or stresses me out. i'm sick of dealing with high school/high schoolers/freehold/everyone who is in fucking freehold. this is one of those many times that i wish i applied somewhere other than HERE so i could get the fuck away from EVERYONE and EVERYTHING. i can't wait for college and i can't wait to just put so many things in the past. i'm sick of being stressed out and i'm sick of being upset and pissed off. i want to feel fucking HAPPY for more than just a day. so thank you so much fucking EVERYONE and EVERYTHING for contributing to this. sometimes i wish everyone would leave me the fuck alone. and sometimes i wish someone would just hold me and make this all go away. but neither will happen. because when i want to be left alone its like i draw in people and when i want someone there everyone is just GONE. so now i want to be gone, gone far away so i can start again and forget everyone and everything that is, was, and will be freehold twp. high school. k thanks, fuck this, bye.