you're such a slut, there's a party of std's on your pussy

[xmorningstarx]

life is so petty, i just don't know anymore. im tired of falling asleep alone. im tired of hanging out with the same person every day. im tired of being lonely.
i dont want to go to school tomorrow. i want to stay home again all day and just sleep my life away.

i sometimes wonder what it would be like to die while you were sleeping. yes it would be painless, but how would it be? would it be how it is when im sleeping? just black till i wake up, only this time i dont wake. we can believe all we want that when we die that there's no after life and blah blah blah, but the thought that i might be wrong, is the only thing that keeps me put. what if i had to sit somewhere for ever and just watch the life that i could have had if i'd stayed. maybe i might be happy with the decision, but then there's also the fact that i might be upset with my decision, seeing how well things would have turned out.

fuck having a brain, fuck thinking all of the time, fuck my life. im tired. and this is all bull shit. im just lonely is all. and the friends i do have, i dont think even notice. so fuck them to, but only for right now. because we all know that i dont mean it. but still fuck them just for right now. and fuck barnes and noble too.