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i wish i could peel the flesh from my bones and watch my heart beat. just to kind of get an idea of how it stays alive. not alive in the way that the blood pumps through it and this and that, but just how it keeps beating after my brain wishes it ill.
beauty? im told... you're too cocky. im told... you need to have confidence in yourself. well which one is it? cocky is for the blind who can not see past the facade hiding every lie that he whispers. lacking, is for those closest to him. and if you're looking in his eyes and see nothing but the ass hole that is his exterior then you know you're place. you are nothing to him. im not saying you will always be nothing, but for the moment, you are nothing.
everybody hates an ass hole, but everybody loves an ass hole. so fuck all of you. you are nothing to me. and most of you will never be anything more than a piece of shit smeared on the living room carpet. your life is too much of a fantasy for me to live. if i could walk to you and stare deep into your eyes, so you knew that anything that crossed my lips would mean everything, i would tell you to lick my shitty ass hole cause you are a fucking leach.
i dont even know why i just wrote what i did, but i did. i cleared my thoughts and began to type. perhaps this will help lift the weight from my shoulders because i am getting rather flustered with a lot of the bull shit that i am dealing with.
and for DREW... i love the fucking shit out of you and i hope that things get better for you. i will always be here when ever you need me, even if it's to plot your families death over livejournal. im here!
and there's this girl at school.. who's beauty could never be put into words so i wont even make an attempt, but i wish i could have her, but im also not cute enough for her, i dont think so any way. so im going to spend nights with dreams.
beauty? im told... you're too cocky. im told... you need to have confidence in yourself. well which one is it? cocky is for the blind who can not see past the facade hiding every lie that he whispers. lacking, is for those closest to him. and if you're looking in his eyes and see nothing but the ass hole that is his exterior then you know you're place. you are nothing to him. im not saying you will always be nothing, but for the moment, you are nothing.
everybody hates an ass hole, but everybody loves an ass hole. so fuck all of you. you are nothing to me. and most of you will never be anything more than a piece of shit smeared on the living room carpet. your life is too much of a fantasy for me to live. if i could walk to you and stare deep into your eyes, so you knew that anything that crossed my lips would mean everything, i would tell you to lick my shitty ass hole cause you are a fucking leach.
i dont even know why i just wrote what i did, but i did. i cleared my thoughts and began to type. perhaps this will help lift the weight from my shoulders because i am getting rather flustered with a lot of the bull shit that i am dealing with.
and for DREW... i love the fucking shit out of you and i hope that things get better for you. i will always be here when ever you need me, even if it's to plot your families death over livejournal. im here!
and there's this girl at school.. who's beauty could never be put into words so i wont even make an attempt, but i wish i could have her, but im also not cute enough for her, i dont think so any way. so im going to spend nights with dreams.