[Late July, 1998]

The stupidity of that woman - one would think those blonde locks aren't died. Does she think I can afford that sort of complication? /Stupid/. Well, she's learned now, I suppose.

( 'Just let me talk to the doctor myself?' (Emma) )

[January 3, 1999]

I shouldn't have said yes to her. I should have made her go - as a point of pride. Once you start giving into them... still. Perhaps there is something to being more pleasant when snow is about - and I got something for it. It was still on my terms.

( 'Oh, I'll be thoroughly receptive to your charms, darling.' (Emma) )

[July 1998]

When mama brought me to church as a boy, the preachers used to say that Jesus was the only perfect person in the world - but I don't go to church anymore.

There are no perfect people - everyone is frail and everyone is weak. Everyone has a place where they break - a part where they were ill-made.

( ' I think I'm going to be ill.' (Emma) )

[December 31, 1998She is still so fragile - not weak, so much, but brittle. What strength of character comes in flashes, glimpses, and then it shatters on the first hard thing it encounters ( Read more... )

[December 1998]

There's steel to her, but it's raw and unfinished. I wish - well, sometimes it needs to bend a little, I suppose, before it learns to temper, and the /quality/ of it. It can't but become stronger from any crucible.

( 'I /don't/ want to be introduced as your latest...conquest.' (Emma) )

[August 31, 1998]

I have heard artists say they look at a piece of wood or stone and see the potential it - some ghost of possibilities hovering over base clay like a prescient vision.

I had not understood what they meant.

( 'You promised me...' (Emma) )

[April 3, 2001:]

Thought she was different from the others. Better. More suited to this life - the life I gave her!

I was wrong. Won't make that mistake again, and we'll see how she'll regret it in time. Oh, yes, she will. I'll make sure of it, after what she did-

Ungrateful bitch.

( 'I have a headache.' [Emma] [rated R] )

[February 14, 2000:]
NB: New Shaw changed this to 2000 from 1999.

Not exactly what I expected on my return from the trip. I was hoping for a long hot shower, a good meal in the privacy of my quarters, an update on whatever I'd missed while I was gone. . . .

She's such a delightful handful of surprises. Darling little girl ( Read more... )

LJ entry: Flashback: the White Queen
Originally posted: February 14, 2006
Written: February 18, 2006
Requested by: xmm_emma

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[November 4, 1999:]
NB: New Shaw moved this scene forward from 1998.

That went well.

Very well.

( 'You would place your child-concubine on the /throne/?' [Emma, NPCs] )