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This is becoming a trend. Sleeping in Syphon's room, I mean. Again I woke in the man's arms, although I left as soon as possible to avoid others from noticing.
Padraig offered me so much. The love between us is/was strong, both physically and emotionally. Yet I will never be able to wake in his arms.
Thomas... I believe that we are establishing quite the friendship, even though having friends is considered a weakness. We only slept together once, so I know that I am not using him in that aspect while Padraig is banned from me. The more we speak, the more I realize we have in common. Does he love me? No. Will he ever? Who is to say. I, for one, do not love him. Perhaps, some day, but for now I am content with our friendship.
If Padraig and I are through, if we can no longer be together.. if he attempts to steal my life for this past week... would I seek a relationship with Tommy? That is hard to say. Part of me fears that such a thing would never happen, as I doubt he would want the strings attached. Part of me wishes to never date again. And then there's that part of me that still loves Padraig.
Blitz and Syphon. Opposite and similiarity. How is it that a person who cares none for any ends up in such a situation. I could cry, were I the type to. I need to speak with Padraig, but I want to wait until after Toxin does.
Padraig offered me so much. The love between us is/was strong, both physically and emotionally. Yet I will never be able to wake in his arms.
Thomas... I believe that we are establishing quite the friendship, even though having friends is considered a weakness. We only slept together once, so I know that I am not using him in that aspect while Padraig is banned from me. The more we speak, the more I realize we have in common. Does he love me? No. Will he ever? Who is to say. I, for one, do not love him. Perhaps, some day, but for now I am content with our friendship.
If Padraig and I are through, if we can no longer be together.. if he attempts to steal my life for this past week... would I seek a relationship with Tommy? That is hard to say. Part of me fears that such a thing would never happen, as I doubt he would want the strings attached. Part of me wishes to never date again. And then there's that part of me that still loves Padraig.
Blitz and Syphon. Opposite and similiarity. How is it that a person who cares none for any ends up in such a situation. I could cry, were I the type to. I need to speak with Padraig, but I want to wait until after Toxin does.