oh I don't know
yes that was for you. apparently you do somewhat care enough to be reading my livejournal and check my facebook. yet still not say anything to me, scumbag.
I really thought I'd be a lot more hurt by things he's done. but I guess all the backstabbing and bullshit last year really has helped me if I honestly don't feel too hurt that I'm no longer speaking to one of my closest friends. it definitely sucks, and I do miss him, but it doesn't hurt. I guess that's a bad thing. I've turned into this person that just doesn't care anymore, but if it saves me from getting hurt then fine.
Grant and I are over, and he officially hates me. although to be fair I did say from the beginning that I wasn't going to have a relationship with him. but I can also see why after 3 months of technically dating he would think it was going in that direction. it did need to end, I just didn't want it to end that way. sucks, hes definitely a good guy and will make somebody a kickass boyfriend, but I am not that somebody.
on the other hand I'm falling for Sam REAL fast. it's not good at all. what sucks is I think I might want a relationship with him. right now we're technically dating, and I told him I wouldn't start a relationship until I've been dating someone for at least a month. I don't really know how he feels about that. kinda wanna know before I get in too far. not like I already am or anything....damnit. it's weird because I would think that Grant is more someone I would want a relationship with, he's much more safe....but Sam is the one I want, real bad.
I'm pretty excited about the week though. should be a good one =)
I really thought I'd be a lot more hurt by things he's done. but I guess all the backstabbing and bullshit last year really has helped me if I honestly don't feel too hurt that I'm no longer speaking to one of my closest friends. it definitely sucks, and I do miss him, but it doesn't hurt. I guess that's a bad thing. I've turned into this person that just doesn't care anymore, but if it saves me from getting hurt then fine.
Grant and I are over, and he officially hates me. although to be fair I did say from the beginning that I wasn't going to have a relationship with him. but I can also see why after 3 months of technically dating he would think it was going in that direction. it did need to end, I just didn't want it to end that way. sucks, hes definitely a good guy and will make somebody a kickass boyfriend, but I am not that somebody.
on the other hand I'm falling for Sam REAL fast. it's not good at all. what sucks is I think I might want a relationship with him. right now we're technically dating, and I told him I wouldn't start a relationship until I've been dating someone for at least a month. I don't really know how he feels about that. kinda wanna know before I get in too far. not like I already am or anything....damnit. it's weird because I would think that Grant is more someone I would want a relationship with, he's much more safe....but Sam is the one I want, real bad.
I'm pretty excited about the week though. should be a good one =)