And the wind is blowing like it's the end of the world, you said
I had a very busy day, today.
I had to catch up on a lot of things that were behind at work.
I started work an hour early and put my earbuds in.
I had a nice workout on my lunch. I jumped on the elliptical and did almost 3 miles in 30 minutes at level 5. I didn't feel like watching anything today so I listened to music, which is great for pacing myself. I'm trying to juggle two projects now at work. I hate having to do that. I only like focusing on one thing at time.
I recently had a falling through with an internet friend, two days ago.
Honestly, I knew it would happen, but I wanted to see how things would go for how long they could go for. It was fun while it lasted, but it eventually comes to this.
She had decided to open up her own sim and wanted me to run an online okiya/geisha boarding school. I agreed to it - at first she had a decent group of people who could pitch in, but she ended up falling out with those friends and it ended up just the three of us. Ultimately, it was okay. I had asked about pricing and whatnot before but didn't get very clear information, so I decided I could pay in maybe about $20 a month if I had it. The more important part of my presence was that I'd play the part of okaasan and run the school she wanted. And I did. I worked very hard to come up with lessons and try to plan things out - all at the same time of trying to help design the sim.
Eventually it just became her bossing me around into adjusting her shit and bothering me all the time to the point where I couldn't even think to plan.
I should also mention that my mother almost died last year in the middle of all this. She had emergency brain surgery while her body could barely support being alive. That took about a month from me in September and a bit of October alone. I also experience hardship from October - Dec 31st because I work with health insurance so I literally have no time for extra activities other than preparing to work again.
Anyway, she randomly freaks out one night because her sim rent is due and she doesn't have the funds. (She's been shopping the whole time, too, so she should have known better. She knows exactly what her rent is). Instead of waiting to talk to me, or asking me if I could help out because I have absolutely no clue about when rent is to be paid or how much (I have no access to it), she went to my friends, who have nothing to do with her sim, and asked them for money!
Then, later, she has the nerve to pull a group of people into a discord group detailing who needs to do what to make sure other people are helping her pay for her sim.
I had had enough. I yelled at her. I told her I was more than happy to be doing what I was doing - and what my limits were, but it was absolutely inappropriate to do what she had done. And that turns into the two of them telling me basically that it's my fault they're not getting any activity on the sim.
I said - that's it. I'm done. I quit the group and blocked her on all platforms.
I had been ready to move them along in their studies for a while now and they were the ones who were procrastinating with being ready for the next lesson. (You need to learn about the culture to be able to role-play it. A LOT of groups do it this way and I've been through 3 or 4 of them and completed all of my training to do so). My work and planning had absolutely no barring on what else they did with the sim. But my friend immediately pointed to me (you know, the person she herself designated as head of the okiya) and said I wasn't doing enough.
Literally, fuck that.
I put way too much planning and hard work into trying to successfully structure the lessons and planning to be blamed. After being told to literally adjust all the shit she just rezzed in world because she's too fucking lazy to place it anywhere properly.
And to be honest, this was a good thing for me.
I am much more at peace now not having to worry about it.
I need to spend less time in world, anyway.