I'm Back!
Today I spent some time reading a friend's livejournal and it really touched me. Her words are the words of my heart right now! I need to change, I need a new way of life and I need answers to questions I am afraid to ask:
I feel like I am just trying to get through college with out really enjoying.
I have been dating the same person for a year and a half now.. Do I want to make it permanent?
Am I going to be satisfied by this person?
Am I settling for what's in front of me and for what I know is a yes when there could be someone else out there?
How do I fix my family?
How did it become so broken?
How did I get so far from God?
Why have I pushed all my friends away?
How did College change me so much?
All these questions and more plague my heart and I don't have the answers....
After reading her post it made me realize how much I miss livejournal because it was my outlet to write how I feel and to get feed back, I know most everyone has gone to Myspace or Facebook but at least I can still write out how I feel.
Here is her post:
"It's so hard being at home, though. I feel like I go backwards or something. I need structure or else I get depressed, and I can already see myself slipping into gloom. I feel like I don't fit in like I used to, and I think it's a good thing because it shows I have changed a lot, but it also sucks because I feel alone. I have changed not because I have accomplished more than others, but because God wanted me to change. I don't know what I want to do with my life now, and that really scares me."
"I need to spend more time with God. Not because I'm supposed to, but because I see myself acting as if I can do things on my own, and I see how I hurt others and place myself over them time and time again. I feel like I need to be serving again. I just know I need to be praying."
!!Megan!!
I feel like I am just trying to get through college with out really enjoying.
I have been dating the same person for a year and a half now.. Do I want to make it permanent?
Am I going to be satisfied by this person?
Am I settling for what's in front of me and for what I know is a yes when there could be someone else out there?
How do I fix my family?
How did it become so broken?
How did I get so far from God?
Why have I pushed all my friends away?
How did College change me so much?
All these questions and more plague my heart and I don't have the answers....
After reading her post it made me realize how much I miss livejournal because it was my outlet to write how I feel and to get feed back, I know most everyone has gone to Myspace or Facebook but at least I can still write out how I feel.
Here is her post:
"It's so hard being at home, though. I feel like I go backwards or something. I need structure or else I get depressed, and I can already see myself slipping into gloom. I feel like I don't fit in like I used to, and I think it's a good thing because it shows I have changed a lot, but it also sucks because I feel alone. I have changed not because I have accomplished more than others, but because God wanted me to change. I don't know what I want to do with my life now, and that really scares me."
"I need to spend more time with God. Not because I'm supposed to, but because I see myself acting as if I can do things on my own, and I see how I hurt others and place myself over them time and time again. I feel like I need to be serving again. I just know I need to be praying."
!!Megan!!