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So today has been one hell of a day.
This morning after I updated I rushed out of the house in a rage. I balled my eyes out all the way to pepperell (stopping once for a hot chocolate).
As I drove into pepperell, Colin was walking up the road. I turned around and offered him a ride. He was on a contemplative walk, he was also having a rough morning. So, not caring if I was latge for work or not I was like "get in." and we drove around for like 5 or 10 minutes and he told me what was bothering him, and he asked me how things were going so I told him what was bothering me. Then I dropped him off in the center of town and headed to Groton. It would have been nice to talk a bit more, I haven't talked to Colin really since Ms. Daly's classroom last year. I don't know if I helped him a whole lot, but I'm sure it helped at least a little bit.
So I go off to Groton, get to the store, no one is there, no big thing. I start doing some billing when Wayne calls and says "make a sign that says 'closed for renovations'" *anger....rising....*I shake it off, make the silly sign and put it on the door and turn several customers away.
Wayne gets over there, and I don't know how to print out the inventory list. I had done it once by mistake when trying to print out the candy inventory, but I couldn't figure it out. SO we try to tackle that for two hours, and finally at noon we have to make a decision. Wayne suggests we wait until Monday and just open the store up for two more days. WTF!!! WHAT THE FUCKING FUUUUCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!! We have been working our sorry asses off for the past month trying to get things in order to close that store, and he decides not to close it!!!
So instead we are going to have a new release dvd store and in the back, we'll sell your stuff on Ebay for $20. That seams awful familiar....hmmmm......ITS FROM THE 40-YEAR OLD VIRGIN! Wayne took a silly idea froma silly movie and applied it to our video store. but hey, at least my job and the jobs of everyone else aren't going to suffer from the nose-dive his business will take.......... : /
So I was pissy all morning and couldn't snap out of it. Then finally around mid-afternoon I cheered up.
Josh looked at an apartment this morning and applied for it, if accepted, which he will be, he will move in next weekend. I've talked it over with my dad, and I'm going to live there also. I'll have to come up with the money all by myself, but hey, its cool, I'm manager of fuckin countryside video, I can do it. My dad thinks I'm making a dumb decision, and he had the audacity to call Josh a jerk. he was like "what if this jerk, I'm sorry, josh, and you break up?" Which was also the first thing my mum asked too. But still, can't anyone jsut think optimisticly instead of saying"nope,not gonna do it." its just insane how ready people are to say that things won't work out.
It sort of makes me sad, my fathers view of me and my relationships. It seems to him that guys just come and go to me, that they mean nothing to me and in an instant they will be gone. Josh and I have somethign strong. We have known each other for years, we worked together for years and all of a sudden we just sort of realized what we could have. I'm not saying that Josh is the "one" and I want to spend the rest of my life with him, I in fact, don't really agree with marriage. But anyway, I jsut think that Josh and I are different from what I've had before, plus the guys I've dated before have all turned out to be assholes and have hurt me. I think when we move into that apartment together, things will be really nice because it will be different. We won't have a lot of other stress factors, you know. We both are seeking an independence and it will be nice to obtain it.
Well I have been sitting on my bed in my underwear for a good half an hour now, so I'm going to go get dressed.
Josh is going to a party tonight with his friends and I might be in the cards a bit later. (I secretly really hope I am in the cards because it would be awesome to see him tonight. ; )
I am going to see Vanessa tomorrow morning and such, I'm actually going to go give her a call.....
This morning after I updated I rushed out of the house in a rage. I balled my eyes out all the way to pepperell (stopping once for a hot chocolate).
As I drove into pepperell, Colin was walking up the road. I turned around and offered him a ride. He was on a contemplative walk, he was also having a rough morning. So, not caring if I was latge for work or not I was like "get in." and we drove around for like 5 or 10 minutes and he told me what was bothering him, and he asked me how things were going so I told him what was bothering me. Then I dropped him off in the center of town and headed to Groton. It would have been nice to talk a bit more, I haven't talked to Colin really since Ms. Daly's classroom last year. I don't know if I helped him a whole lot, but I'm sure it helped at least a little bit.
So I go off to Groton, get to the store, no one is there, no big thing. I start doing some billing when Wayne calls and says "make a sign that says 'closed for renovations'" *anger....rising....*I shake it off, make the silly sign and put it on the door and turn several customers away.
Wayne gets over there, and I don't know how to print out the inventory list. I had done it once by mistake when trying to print out the candy inventory, but I couldn't figure it out. SO we try to tackle that for two hours, and finally at noon we have to make a decision. Wayne suggests we wait until Monday and just open the store up for two more days. WTF!!! WHAT THE FUCKING FUUUUCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!! We have been working our sorry asses off for the past month trying to get things in order to close that store, and he decides not to close it!!!
So instead we are going to have a new release dvd store and in the back, we'll sell your stuff on Ebay for $20. That seams awful familiar....hmmmm......ITS FROM THE 40-YEAR OLD VIRGIN! Wayne took a silly idea froma silly movie and applied it to our video store. but hey, at least my job and the jobs of everyone else aren't going to suffer from the nose-dive his business will take.......... : /
So I was pissy all morning and couldn't snap out of it. Then finally around mid-afternoon I cheered up.
Josh looked at an apartment this morning and applied for it, if accepted, which he will be, he will move in next weekend. I've talked it over with my dad, and I'm going to live there also. I'll have to come up with the money all by myself, but hey, its cool, I'm manager of fuckin countryside video, I can do it. My dad thinks I'm making a dumb decision, and he had the audacity to call Josh a jerk. he was like "what if this jerk, I'm sorry, josh, and you break up?" Which was also the first thing my mum asked too. But still, can't anyone jsut think optimisticly instead of saying"nope,not gonna do it." its just insane how ready people are to say that things won't work out.
It sort of makes me sad, my fathers view of me and my relationships. It seems to him that guys just come and go to me, that they mean nothing to me and in an instant they will be gone. Josh and I have somethign strong. We have known each other for years, we worked together for years and all of a sudden we just sort of realized what we could have. I'm not saying that Josh is the "one" and I want to spend the rest of my life with him, I in fact, don't really agree with marriage. But anyway, I jsut think that Josh and I are different from what I've had before, plus the guys I've dated before have all turned out to be assholes and have hurt me. I think when we move into that apartment together, things will be really nice because it will be different. We won't have a lot of other stress factors, you know. We both are seeking an independence and it will be nice to obtain it.
Well I have been sitting on my bed in my underwear for a good half an hour now, so I'm going to go get dressed.
Josh is going to a party tonight with his friends and I might be in the cards a bit later. (I secretly really hope I am in the cards because it would be awesome to see him tonight. ; )
I am going to see Vanessa tomorrow morning and such, I'm actually going to go give her a call.....