my brain hurts from all this thinking....
wow havent writting in a while...some shits happened in the past few weeks...new people that im chylln with...new experiences. my life has made a 180degree turn. finding out some shit about people that i dont want to find out and some that i do want to find out. im realizing who my TRUE friends are and not the ones that only call when their plans fall thru. i dont care what people think of me anymore...if they dont like how i am or how im acting then talk to me about it but im not promising that im gonna change.
some shit happened last nite that was "unusual" in a way but i dont know whats going to happen now. might have to handle it or might just let it slip by. not sure yet but this bullshits been going on for a while so im not sure whats going down.
as for friends...hmmm...not talking to much of the "old group" any more and thats upsetting but i guess i ruined it with the stupid shit ive done. that was a really fun group we had...im sorry if it was me. idk what happened everything kinda just started falling apart at the end of the summer and it keeps going down. but i hope we can pull it back together somehow. i think everyone is just going their separate ways...not forgetting all the good times we had but not making more of them. mayb this summer will change it all. we are all getting our permits...some getting our license this summer(i now have to wait a whole fuckin year for my fuckin permit) and others getting jobs...we are all growing up and i hope we can still have our group. well have some good times if we all stick together.
idk im in a weird mood just writing from my head. what ever goes thru it at that moment is what im writing down. i feel that that is the best way to get everything out and it just clears the mind. idk. whatever. ill write more later. i just need to do something to calm myself down. pissed off as usual. its whatever....