My heart aches...
So much right now and I cannot handle the silence because I can hear it breaking to the tune of my loathsome thoughts. I cannot turn up the tv load enough, I cannot read enough, I cannot turn the thoughts down enough, I want to let go, I need to let go, lord make me let go...
The kids did so well tonight with their show I am so proud of them, even the trouble makers :), they were all wonderful and there were only a couple hiccups here and there. I will miss working with them so much. I got a death glare from a 17 year old -the girlfriend of the 17 year old music director- but I made sure to let her know that he said good things about her and I made fun of him like a brother. I think i heard him whisper to her "She's 26..." *shrugs* lol A jealous little thing she is. But hey, she'll learn to mellow out, she is young. If only she knew I was pinning away for someone else maybe she would be put at ease.
And of course the stupid tv has everything about relationships... Disney please...please, stop making me think of my lack of a love life...pouts.
And yea, still no idea where I am going to be living, or moving, or what... Dad got the job to remodel this place, my room and bathroom is gutted. The floor is DI-SGUST-ING! So are the walls. So yea, there you have that.
The kids did so well tonight with their show I am so proud of them, even the trouble makers :), they were all wonderful and there were only a couple hiccups here and there. I will miss working with them so much. I got a death glare from a 17 year old -the girlfriend of the 17 year old music director- but I made sure to let her know that he said good things about her and I made fun of him like a brother. I think i heard him whisper to her "She's 26..." *shrugs* lol A jealous little thing she is. But hey, she'll learn to mellow out, she is young. If only she knew I was pinning away for someone else maybe she would be put at ease.
And of course the stupid tv has everything about relationships... Disney please...please, stop making me think of my lack of a love life...pouts.
And yea, still no idea where I am going to be living, or moving, or what... Dad got the job to remodel this place, my room and bathroom is gutted. The floor is DI-SGUST-ING! So are the walls. So yea, there you have that.