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Ever since I found out I would get surgery to end all this madness in 2ish weeks I was actually...excited. And anxious but anxious from being excited that once the surgery was done I was basically done with being anemic and the fear of perpetual headaches and fatigue and lethal hemoglobin levels.
...But I just spent a solid 15 minutes, just 15 minutes, googling and looking at forums about the recovery period for surgery.
I'm terrified. I'm absolutely terrified. And I'm 17, not 33 or 45 or 28. So I have no idea if that makes it better or worse. Even if it makes it better...I'm still terrified.
My mom is a trooper. Pain is nothing for my mommy. She laughs at needles and if she chops her finger with a cleaver, she calmly asks me for a band-aid. She had the same surgery a decade ago and she used to laugh with me because we thought I would never need this surgery because they would use laser/newer techniques on me so she didn't have to worry about scaring me about this one. And she'd tell me about how painful it was and now...it's my turn. And I'm so scared.
And all these people are talking about how it feels like the surgery is barely worth the pain during recovery BUT THANKFULLY theres one woman who said it was worth not being anemic anymore.
And whats even more ridiculous is that I'm scared of missing school for so long. Missing school and pain.
I'm scared. I'm actually...really scared.
...But I just spent a solid 15 minutes, just 15 minutes, googling and looking at forums about the recovery period for surgery.
I'm terrified. I'm absolutely terrified. And I'm 17, not 33 or 45 or 28. So I have no idea if that makes it better or worse. Even if it makes it better...I'm still terrified.
My mom is a trooper. Pain is nothing for my mommy. She laughs at needles and if she chops her finger with a cleaver, she calmly asks me for a band-aid. She had the same surgery a decade ago and she used to laugh with me because we thought I would never need this surgery because they would use laser/newer techniques on me so she didn't have to worry about scaring me about this one. And she'd tell me about how painful it was and now...it's my turn. And I'm so scared.
And all these people are talking about how it feels like the surgery is barely worth the pain during recovery BUT THANKFULLY theres one woman who said it was worth not being anemic anymore.
And whats even more ridiculous is that I'm scared of missing school for so long. Missing school and pain.
I'm scared. I'm actually...really scared.