i wanna feel like i am alive again..
"and will be alone when you say it's alright
'cause you're the only one who will know
and i know, and do you even remember
the color of my eyes
or even what my voice sounds like
well here's a reminder love
to go with those chills down your spine"
argh. thats how i feel right now. i am stressing out still.
but i am happy. yet sad. i got a job at applebees.
the brand new one that open in Davison on the 13th.
i have to go at 9am monday and get my uniform and paperwork
and all that such. my orientation. so i am sort of excited for that.
hey its my first job, finally. i will have money! :]
well i dont know. i miss a lot of things though. i think that
i honestly think way too much. i just. remind myself of things.
things i shouldnt be thinking about, but i cant help it.
i have been listening to Backseat goodbye, Dashboard confessional,
death cab for cutie, hellogoodbye, and bright eyes. its a bunch of indie
and sad music. but its just been my mood for the past 3 weeks.
what is wrong with me? :[
i guess i will just deal with it, and keep on faking my smiles.
i hate complaining. but i just need a place to vent, or someone to vent to.
i have a bunch of people who would listen. but none would really, 'listen'
you know what i am saying? They just honestly wouldnt really care. i need
to meet some new people. maybe i will just go for a friend hunt at mott.
i dont know. whatever. i just need sleep. i have insomnia or something.
maybe i just need to write songs. i used to do that, when i had to see a therapist.
it really helped. maybe ill learn to play the acoustic guitar and sing songs to myself.
someone teach me? cause it would be much help. :] kthnx.
Always;
xo. Sarah.
'cause you're the only one who will know
and i know, and do you even remember
the color of my eyes
or even what my voice sounds like
well here's a reminder love
to go with those chills down your spine"
argh. thats how i feel right now. i am stressing out still.
but i am happy. yet sad. i got a job at applebees.
the brand new one that open in Davison on the 13th.
i have to go at 9am monday and get my uniform and paperwork
and all that such. my orientation. so i am sort of excited for that.
hey its my first job, finally. i will have money! :]
well i dont know. i miss a lot of things though. i think that
i honestly think way too much. i just. remind myself of things.
things i shouldnt be thinking about, but i cant help it.
i have been listening to Backseat goodbye, Dashboard confessional,
death cab for cutie, hellogoodbye, and bright eyes. its a bunch of indie
and sad music. but its just been my mood for the past 3 weeks.
what is wrong with me? :[
i guess i will just deal with it, and keep on faking my smiles.
i hate complaining. but i just need a place to vent, or someone to vent to.
i have a bunch of people who would listen. but none would really, 'listen'
you know what i am saying? They just honestly wouldnt really care. i need
to meet some new people. maybe i will just go for a friend hunt at mott.
i dont know. whatever. i just need sleep. i have insomnia or something.
maybe i just need to write songs. i used to do that, when i had to see a therapist.
it really helped. maybe ill learn to play the acoustic guitar and sing songs to myself.
someone teach me? cause it would be much help. :] kthnx.
Always;
xo. Sarah.