starting over...
Hey everyone!
Sorry I haven't been on lately...re-thinking my life.
I'm done with love for now.
My feelings and emotions have been messed up and I've been throwing around names saying I love them when it was all a facade. I've finally gotten back to normal and I don't love anyone. If I explained it all here - it would be like a 10 page long essay so just bare with me here. I've finally organized and got my feelings back to normal. So it's all good.
But hey - that's the only positive thing in my life at the moment.
I'm addicted to a drug that I've been taking for the past 3 months. It's some spray you take to breathe. See when I'm stressed out (which is always), I can't breathe so I started taking it. On the bottle it says don't take it for more than 2 weeks. I've been taking it for over 3 months. My mum found out at the same time I realized I was addicted. And it sucks cause I'm dependent on it now. So I made a promise to her that I'd try to stop.
First night - I went through the night successfully without taking it.
Second night - major cold. i couldn't breathe. i broke down. and took it. i've been taking it since. it's the second day of taking it. it helps me sleep so i say screw everyone. but i hate having to lie to my mum and saying i'm not taking it. when the cold is over, i'm throwing out the meds. but it's hell. i've got this horrible cold right before finals and I've got to do 3 bloody performances this weekend and the next. Too much for me. Too much.
starting to speak with a british accent and slang.
always fun.
my cup of tea.
my life is a mess.
i'll be better soon...
i hope.
Sorry I haven't been on lately...re-thinking my life.
I'm done with love for now.
My feelings and emotions have been messed up and I've been throwing around names saying I love them when it was all a facade. I've finally gotten back to normal and I don't love anyone. If I explained it all here - it would be like a 10 page long essay so just bare with me here. I've finally organized and got my feelings back to normal. So it's all good.
But hey - that's the only positive thing in my life at the moment.
I'm addicted to a drug that I've been taking for the past 3 months. It's some spray you take to breathe. See when I'm stressed out (which is always), I can't breathe so I started taking it. On the bottle it says don't take it for more than 2 weeks. I've been taking it for over 3 months. My mum found out at the same time I realized I was addicted. And it sucks cause I'm dependent on it now. So I made a promise to her that I'd try to stop.
First night - I went through the night successfully without taking it.
Second night - major cold. i couldn't breathe. i broke down. and took it. i've been taking it since. it's the second day of taking it. it helps me sleep so i say screw everyone. but i hate having to lie to my mum and saying i'm not taking it. when the cold is over, i'm throwing out the meds. but it's hell. i've got this horrible cold right before finals and I've got to do 3 bloody performances this weekend and the next. Too much for me. Too much.
starting to speak with a british accent and slang.
always fun.
my cup of tea.
my life is a mess.
i'll be better soon...
i hope.