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so the first week he was gone was hard as shit, we barely talked cause he was always so busy. we fought a lot because i felt like he didnt care. i saw him last sunday for a little then monday night he came and slept over so he could work for his old boss on tuesday. and then thursday he surprised me and was at my house when i got off work even tho he told me he couldnt come see me. right now hes somewhere on his way to florida with his friends. hes driving apparently. we fought last night. more like he picked a fight with me. i went out with katie and chris to this guys house. we drank a little and hung out in his pool and hot tub. and jake was jealous i guess. he kept on sayin i was gonna get drunk and get raped lalala. and then i called him when i got home at like 12 and he said hed call back. around 3:30 he started textin me callin me a drunk ass and what not and then called me and we fought. he was like i dont kno what your doin when im not there. i was like well then come back, your the one that moved away i dont kno what ur doin either. he was like im never movin back there lalla. i hate it when we fight like that. he KNOWS that id so much rather be sittin doin nothing with him then go out and party, but hes just bein stubborn in what he thinks and being a hypocrite. sometimes he makes me so happy but other times he makes me so angry and makes me wanna shoot him in the foot and cause him all the pain hes caused me. grrr. and workin full time sucks. i never even really FEEL like goin out cause im always so tired. next saturday is my birthday. wow ill b 19. hopefully jake will make it back to spend the whole weekend with me. apparently accordin to nat were havin a BBQ and everyones invited. yup. thats it. im done complaining about how hard being in a relationship is...especially my long distance one.