i feel worthless..
i dunno. i haven't talked to mike for the last 2 days, and today is gonna be 3. he's usually on in the mornings, but he hasn't been. although he did come on yesterday afternoon when i was at work. and yesterday was our 2 months and he didn't even acknowledge it. =( i dunno lately i've just been feeling worthless. why am i here? i hate summer, i never do anything, no one ever wants to hang out. i would die to be in massachusetts, i miss it so friggen much. i just feel if i weren't here today no one would miss me..i love mike so freakin much, i don't get to see him enough and i miss him like crazy. i just need to face the fact, that i AM a loser..i have like no friends. the only people who really give a damn are mike, alyssa and liz...i dont even know if liz does..there are days that i wish i were suicidal...but im not, and i never will be....but idk life just sucks to the max right now..