Kyuhyun's First 03
Title: Kyuhyun's First
Starring: Sungmin/Kyuhyun, Hyukjae/Kyuhyun
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, fluff, friendship
Words: Ongoing
A/N: For the BottomKyu community on LiveJournal
Prompt: gif/drag game found in Lanaleiss' journal.
My First Handjob
The next time Kyuhyun and Hyukjae meet is completely unexpected and fairly uncomfortable.
Kyuhyun swallows with difficulty as Hyukjae's eyes widen at his presence in the adult store. It feels silly to ask each other why they're here: Kyuhyun sees the nametag on Hyukjae's shirt and obviously he has none, meaning only Hyukjae has a less embarrassing reason to be here right now.
"I.. didn't know that.." Kyuhyun starts, but finds it difficult to continue and shifts his gaze with a light blush.
"That I work in a porn store? Yeah," Hyukjae finishes for him and tries to laugh about the situation but his laughter sounds forced and he cringes at it.
"You never told me," Kyuhyun says as he makes a pointless hand motion at Hyukjae who presses the collection of new x-rated DVDs tightly against his chest.
"Would you?" he asks in return, meeting Kyuhyun's embarrassed look with one of his own. The younger one shakes his head carefully, inwardly telling his friend he would never even dare to work here, and offers a small smile that lightens the mood immensely.
"It's not all the time, you know, just most of the time," Hyukjae clarifies straight away that he is not a full time employee. He is able to return the hesitant smile on Kyuhyun's face before the awkward moment returns, because unlike Hyukjae, Kyuhyun has no apparent reason to be here.
Hyukjae sees a moment to fall back in his old behaviour and picks a random DVD from the pile pressed in-between his arm and chest, wiggling the case at Kyuhyun teasingly. He doesn't know what Kyuhyun's preferences are, but he can guess and is pretty sure the large muscled men on the gay porn in his hand are far too intimidating for the virgin.
"Want me to help find you something nice?" Hyukjae teases with a gummy smile.
The blush returns to Kyuhyun's cheeks and he raises a hand to smack his friend, but decides not to cause a scene in a store he has never entered before. Besides, he treated Hyukjae pretty badly last time they parted ways and though he doesn't voice that he feels apologetic, it makes him cope with the blonde's teasing instead. Therefore he simply shakes his head, hands in his pockets as he looks around the adult shop.
The seductive men on the DVD cover make Kyuhyun feel a little bit suffocated in his already thin attire. Though there is a pleasant breeze from the air conditioner, the heat only increases within Kyuhyun's body as his eyes rank over all the items in the store: books, DVDs, magazines, condoms, costumes, games (ones he is too prudish to play for a change), lingerie, lotions, toys and so much more.
"Are you here to buy something?" Hyukjae's question pulls Kyuhyun from his own world. He glances at his working friend with shifty eyes, feeling embarrassed and out of place in this kind of shop. Should he buy something? Kyuhyun isn't so sure about that and gives a small shrug.
"There must be a reason why you came though, and don't tell me you came searching for me, because even though I'd feel flattered: you didn't know I work here," the blonde male says with a lopsided grin.
"Just thought I'd get myself.. better educated," Kyuhyun finally confesses, hands fumbling nervously in his pockets.
He reveals them and sees they are clammy. The questioning eyebrow Hyukjae raises at him doesn't decrease the fast beating of his heart or the deep blush on his cheeks and he scoffs, snatching a random DVD from the rack beside him and eyeing it carefully. His eyes widen once he reads the summary of the porn movie. Men who love pain, the summary clearly says and after glancing at several small pictures provided on the back Kyuhyun realizes he is holding a fetish DVD.
Beside him Hyukjae makes an interested sound, body leaning closer to read the back of the case as well, but he doesn't get to when Kyuhyun steps back, seemingly claiming the DVD. Hyukjae looks surprised, but laughs while Kyuhyun quickly tries to dispose of the porn movie. It isn't his intention to buy the DVD, but Hyukjae urges him on teasingly.
"What's the matter? No need to feel ashamed, everyone has their own kinks," the blonde says and crouches to pick up several other movies that he is supposed to place in alphabetic order.
"Kinks?" Kyuhyun repeats as if it's the first time the word rolls from his lips. This is not the case, but he never thought of such preferences before so when Hyukjae asks him what his kink is, Kyuhyun inhales deeply and stays silent.
The employee purses his lips, eyes trailing over the wide variation of movies as he explains to the innocent Kyuhyun that kinks such as spanking, bondage, dominance and submission are most common amongst his customers. Kyuhyun feels his ears heat up at the words, images of his adventure with Sungmin on the beach and in the water causing for heat to gather in the pit of his stomach. Though he is still very inexperienced, Kyuhyun realizes that Sungmin has been leading the dates so far and that not only reassures him, it excites him as well to be handled by someone so confidently. In a way that's dominance and submission, isn't it? That's a kink, isn't it?
Kyuhyun ruffles his own hair awkwardly as he stands beside Hyukjae looking at the movies as if they're in a normal video shop. If only that is the case, Kyuhyun exhales shakily as his eyes land on a cover with two striking handsome men, one of them on his knees and his face pressed against the other's thighs. The expression on the man's face screams 'sex' with his mouth agape, head tilted back and eyes half-lidded as he stares at the other. The one standing has bleached hair and his hand in the other's dark locks, assuming tightly gripping the man's head while guiding his face to the obvious bulge in his tight underwear.
A hand reaches for this exact DVD, Hyukjae's hand to be precise. He noticed his friend's stare and inspects the cover with mild interest. When his eyes shift to lock with Kyuhyun's, the later looks away with a bright blush.
"Didn't expect you to like this one," Hyukjae breaks the silence and holds out the movie for Kyuhyun to take which the dark haired male does, though hesitantly.
"Well, why not? You said it yourself: everyone has their own kink," he replies defensively and frowns when the blonde snorts softly.
"Just figured you'd look for someone who resembled Sungmin," Hyukjae retorts in a way that causes for Kyuhyun's eyes to narrow.
"You don't like Sungmin?" Kyuhyun asks bluntly.
Hyukjae gives a shrug and sighs deeply. "We have some common interests," he mumbles before he looks around to make sure his boss is not around to scold him for chatting during work.
"You must know more about him," Kyuhyun presses on, taking a step closer to his blonde friend despite the other's sudden look of discomfort.
"What is there to say? He's older, no longer a college student unlike you and me, he works at his father's company at a position he probably doesn't deserve and that's all," Hyukjae says with a strangely monotone voice as he turns to face the rack of DVDs.
"That's all? That's all you know or that's all you want me to know?" Kyuhyun asks suspiciously, crossing his arms when his friend avoids his eyes.
"Look man, if you want to know more about him, go to the guy himself, you're dating him for crying out loud," Hyukjae refuses to face him as he speaks. He takes one DVD from the pile between his arm and chest and stuffs it into the rack with a rather harsh motion that makes Kyuhyun frown in slight concern.
"We haven't talked a lot during our dates.." Kyuhyun mumbles, the look in his eyes reflecting confusion as Hyukjae glances at him and then abruptly walks away. The younger male follows him quickly, hand still clutching the DVD and jaws clenched. Hyukjae's attitude is annoying him to no end, but because they have been friends for so long already Kyuhyun suppresses the fury within him.
"We haven't talked a lot either, lately."
Kyuhyun stops walking when Hyukjae does and he waits for his friend to turn around, but he never does and chooses to get behind the counter instead where he busies himself with paperwork. Kyuhyun wonders if he is truly supposed to read through the pages or if he's deliberately avoiding conversing with him.
The young male leans over the counter, bending his body in ways that will hopefully grant him the view of Hyukjae's face as the blonde male turns slightly. By the deep crease on Hyukjae's forehead and his unfocused eyes, Kyuhyun concludes that his friend is truly searching for excuses not to face him. Growing angry, Kyuhyun slams the movie on the counter without a word, silently demanding Hyukjae turns toward him to serve him as a client.
"Look at me!" he even demands, surprising himself and Hyukjae with his harsh tone.
Slowly Hyukjae turns around, placing his hands far apart on the counter. He leans on them as he leans forward, eyes now on Kyuhyun's eyelevel as he does as told: looking at Kyuhyun. The deep frown on Kyuhyun's brows stays as they stare at each other with several inches between their faces.
It's not something uncommon and therefore Kyuhyun feels less uncomfortable than he'd be if Sungmin was to lean in to him like this, but this isn't Sungmin, it's Hyukjae, the one who is supposed to support him through his first serious relationship! All he has done so far is interrogate him and nothing more, is that truly all Hyukjae is planning to do? Rather than being happy for Kyuhyun it looks like Hyukjae is bothered by his interest in Sungmin and Kyuhyun can't figure out why.
And how is he going to find out? Not with help from his so-called best friend, that's clear now. It's the first time Kyuhyun feels like Hyukjae is keeping something from him, there's something he's not telling him and that makes it difficult for him to keep their eyes locked. His eyes shift down to the movie he is about to purchase.
"That'll be 12,000 won," Hyukjae's voice suddenly says and it startles Kyuhyun, because the silence was so thick before.
Reluctantly Kyuhyun reveals his wallet and, similarly to the movie, smacks the bills on the counter. It's a pathetic way to vent the growing anger within him. Kyuhyun understands people have their little secrets, but this, whatever it is, it doesn't feel like a little secret. Hyukjae is stubborn however, treating Kyuhyun like an everyday customer as he gives him his change and wishes him a good day.
"Enjoy the movie," Hyukjae adds before he turns his back to Kyuhyun once more.
Moments later the younger one is out of the adult shop, DVD hidden in a small plastic bag as he stomps to his car and slams his door shut after sitting down. His eyes are wild and stare intently at the front of the shop, but his lips form a thin line.
First thing he does when Kyuhyun comes home is stomp his way up the staircase and to his room, slamming the door like a child that got sent to his room. He makes a lot of noise and strains his ears, silently concluding his mother isn't home or she would have scolded him by now. After several deep breaths Kyuhyun lowers his head and sees that he is still holding the white plastic big in which the porn movie rests. He raises it and wants to throw it onto his bed, but changes his mind. Though he's not in the mood to look at porn, Kyuhyun hopes it will take his mind off of Hyukjae for a little. Yes, now it's time to enjoy, not to frown and grit his teeth.
Step one: thoroughly inspect the house for parents or sibling. Step two: stare out of the window of his room before yanking at the curtains, blocking out unwanted spectators and the sun. Step three: gather the tissues and lotion.
Kyuhyun blushes as he reaches for his nightstand where he keeps a small bottle of lubricant. He grabs it with a huff, telling himself not to back down, because he is all alone and spent money on this thing so he might as well see if it was worth it. Still nervously he takes the disk from the case and inserts it in his DVD player, sitting back on his bed with the remote in his hand. The bright light from the screen makes his eyes squint, but they widen when instantly moaning erupts from his speakers. Quickly he lowers the volume, heart pounding against his chest even if he is all alone in the large mansion. He sighs deeply, and clicks through the menu, eyes lingering on the teasing preview pictures that make the moaning and grunting of the actors that much hotter.
With a hot blush on his cheeks, Kyuhyun shifts on the bed, teeth sinking repeatedly in his lower lip. Arousal is already making his jeans a bit confining, but Kyuhyun refrains from touching himself and he hits the play button. The title of the movie appears in giant pink font that matched the colour of Kyuhyun's cheeks. He scrunches his nose at the hotel room that is displayed next, the blonde male from the cover casually sitting on the bed with what appears to be a menu on his lap.
"Room service, pffft.." Kyuhyun rolls his eyes as the title of the movie gives away all there is to give away for soon there is a knock on the door and the second male on the cover appears rolling a trolley stacked with food into the room. The two main characters of the cheap porn movie have already been introduced. Not soon after the dark haired male sums up the other's order and presents him the food, the blonde male states he wants to skip to desert.
An amused chuckle rises in Kyuhyun's throat, but he nearly chokes on it when the man with the bleached hair starts to roughly undress the other, ripping at clothing and sending buttons everywhere. They kiss passionately, tongues swirling visibly and teeth nibbling on lips. It reminds Kyuhyun of his heated kisses with Sungmin and how aroused he was just from the man's hands rubbing sun block on his body. Kyuhyun gulps when the dark haired man moans out with the other's calloused hands yanking on his shorts to reveal an already hard, long cock.
His own is in a similar state by now and as the two figures on his screen engage in another heated kiss, Kyuhyun fumbles with his buckle and zipper, easing his hand underneath the garments that suppress the pulsing length in-between his legs. A shaky moan escapes from his slightly parted lips, his other hand supporting his weight as he reveals his arousal and gives it several light strokes.
"I get so horny just thinking about your lips on my cock, get on your knees, boy," the blonde man pants hoarsely, thumb sweeping over the other's swollen lower lip as he speaks.
As expected the blonde is the dominant one, barking orders, and it doesn't take long before the submissive one sinks to his knees and looks up with wide begging eyes.
"Yes, I want to suck it," the dark haired man calls out pleadingly and Kyuhyun shivers.
The hand around his throbbing flesh tightens as he watches the naked man undress the other as well, hands sliding up and down a well toned chest until the jeans slip down a slim waist. Another ridiculously long erection appears, but just shortly, because the blonde man orders the other to lick and suck it. Eager to please, the man's tongue spreads generous amounts of saliva on the long shaft, lips curling around the leaking head.
Kyuhyun watches with half-lidded eyes and parted lips as the submissive man works the cock down his throat. Amazed, Kyuhyun takes a moment to admire the man as he jerks at his own erection and wonders if he will ever be able to do such a thing. It doesn't look difficult, bobbing one's head up and down, hands on either hips, thighs or palming the sack in-between.
Moans fill the four walls of his room, Kyuhyun's included as his vision begins to blur until all he can see is a spot of white representing the dominant's head and a dark spot moving rhythmically. The longer he stares at the white spot the more it begins to remind him of Hyukjae's dyed hair. Kyuhyun grunts softly, trying to block the images of his friend while his hand is still erratically jerking on his pulsing length. No, that guy is the last person he wants to think about, especially when he's masturbating, damn it!
Much to Kyuhyun's horror Hyukjae is stuck in his mind and his imagination turns the entire world upside down after his eyes close. The moans of the men on his screen create a vivid image where the blonde man is no longer a stranger, but the man he befriended so many years ago. Kyuhyun gives a small gasp, hand stopping on his arousal and he squeezes his eyes shut tightly.
"Go away, go away.." he mutters breathlessly, his cock giving a heavy throb when the image in front of his eyelids only becomes more erotic with himself on his knees, lips around Hyukjae's cock.
His hand resumes its stroking motion when the throbbing starts to hurt. Kyuhyun hangs his head, ears and cheeks burning bright red as he hears the dominating man from the movie order the other to turn around and raise his ass in the air. His eyes finally snap open after imagining Hyukjae's lips moving, pronouncing those exact words.
Though already shocked, the ringing of his phone nearly gives him a heart attack. Kyuhyun pants harshly as he searches for the remote to pause the movie before trembling hands raise his mobile. The name displayed on the vibrating device kills his erection instantly.
"S-Sungmin, hey" Kyuhyun answers the call with a voice that sounds terribly strained.
"Hey, sorry it took a while before I had time to call," Sungmin's apologetic voice seeps through from the other side of the phone.
Kyuhyun lets himself fall back on his bed with a sigh, eyelids heavy, but he is afraid more of Hyukjae will appear if he closes his eyes for too long. He stares at the ceiling instead when Sungmin asks him if everything is alright.
"Just tired," Kyuhyun mumbles in return, heart beating loudly in his ears.
"I see, sorry, did I call at a bad time?" the light voice asks kindly and Kyuhyun finds himself smiling slightly with a faint blush on his cheeks.
"No, it's okay, I.. I was waiting for your call, actually," Kyuhyun bites his lip and lifts his hips from the bed to pull his underwear and jeans back in place.
There is an amused chuckle from Sungmin that makes him shiver and then Sungmin's teasing voice makes him blush as he clarifies that Kyuhyun is allowed to call him as well if he wants to so desperately. Kyuhyun clears his throat embarrassedly, thankful that their conversation enables audio only, because he would have died on the spot if Sungmin had caught him masturbating.
"I know, I just didn't.. I mean, I wasn't sure if you wanted to.. arrange another date after last time," Kyuhyun confesses awkwardly and rubs his face tiredly.
"Mm? Why wouldn't I? I enjoyed our time together at the beach," Sungmin replies with a slightly lowered voice that makes Kyuhyun swallow thickly.
"I did, too," he replies quickly and sits up, blushing as Sungmin chuckles into his ear again.
The brunette stares at his screen while Sungmin suggests different locations to meet up for a third date. Bowling, visiting COEX Aquarium or the theatre? But wait, Sungmin has more options to choose from and Kyuhyun stays silent as he moves through his room, fingers hesitating when wanting to press 'eject' on his DVD player. With one long last look at the arousing position of the men in front of him Kyuhyun removes the disk and hides the porn movie in his drawer underneath his underwear. While he is rummaging with these garments he decides a change is best as his boxers has several stains from his precum.
"So, what do you think?" Sungmin's voice suddenly asks and Kyuhyun slightly panics, flailing the pair of underwear in his hand as he tries to remember whatever Sungmin told him to choose from.
"I-um, mm," Kyuhyun replies with hesitantly, his mind fogged with screenshots of the porn he watched minutes ago. Room service, what a ridiculous name and theme for a porn movie, but it helps Kyuhyun to make a decision without further stretching the awkward silence that is consuming their conversation.
"Let's dine somewhere," he says confidentially, looking forward to a date spend with Sungmin after the sun goes down.
"The restaurant option? Sure, I'm always in to taste new cuisine, what about you?" Sungmin asks approvingly of Kyuhyun's decision.
"New cuisine? Yeah, I suppose," he replies with a shrug that Sungmin will never see.
Sharing new experiences together is a great way to strengthen his bond with the alluring male. Furthermore this creates a somewhat private and calm situation for Kyuhyun to ask more about Sungmin's life, his likes, dislikes, hobbies, whatever. The man will probably take Kyuhyun some place new, to a restaurant with a new ethnic cuisine that neither of them have tried before and who knows, perhaps Kyuhyun will like the new taste.
Later that week, Kyuhyun gathered enough courage to enter the adult store where he last saw Hyukjae and where be purchased the porn video. He still feels out of place as he passes imposing toys and leather garments, but his eyes are focused on bleached blonde hair as he moves forward.
"Here, I don't want it anymore," Kyuhyun says nonchalantly as he approaches Hyukjae from behind.
The blonde turns around with large eyes, surprised to see Kyuhyun in this store once more and even more surprised that he is still talking to him. His eyes shift downward to the DVD the other is holding and he gives a shrug.
"We don't do refunds, what's bought is yours," he explains, but Kyuhyun insists that Hyukaje takes the movie from him. Hyukjae doesn't want it and holds his hands in the air when Kyuhyun continues to try and force him.
"Why do you want to return it? Didn't like it after all? Well that's too bad, some covers are misleading, but you don't seem bothered by that," Hyukjae says a bit roughly and steps away from Kyuhyun.
"Yah! What's that supposed to mean?" the brunette asks with an offended look. He remembers Hyukjae warning him about something in the car, something about looks that might be deceiving. A deep frown appears on Kyuhyun's face and he pushes the movie against Hyukjae's chest.
"Leave Sungmin out of this! In fact, I came to return this because you were right: I indeed want one that has a guy that looks like Sungmin, not you!" Kyuhyun bellows angrily and after Hyukjae stays silent he lets go of the porn DVD and turns around, leaving the adult store like he did last time: on stomping feet.
The blonde male feels a blush cover his cheeks when other customers eye him suspiciously. Kyuhyun made a big scene and forced Hyukjae to take back the cheap porn movie. When Hyukjae looks down, he notices once more that one of the men has bleached hair much like his own. He tilts his head and thinks for a moment, replaying Kyuhyun's words in his head. There's an instant explanation for his confusion, but Hyukjae shakes his head, refusing to believe such a thing.
A guy that looks like Sungmin, not you: what does that mean, exactly?
It can't be, Kyuhyun thought of..him?
My First..?
Starring: Sungmin/Kyuhyun, Hyukjae/Kyuhyun
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Romance, fluff, friendship
Words: Ongoing
A/N: For the BottomKyu community on LiveJournal
Prompt: gif/drag game found in Lanaleiss' journal.
My First Handjob
The next time Kyuhyun and Hyukjae meet is completely unexpected and fairly uncomfortable.
Kyuhyun swallows with difficulty as Hyukjae's eyes widen at his presence in the adult store. It feels silly to ask each other why they're here: Kyuhyun sees the nametag on Hyukjae's shirt and obviously he has none, meaning only Hyukjae has a less embarrassing reason to be here right now.
"I.. didn't know that.." Kyuhyun starts, but finds it difficult to continue and shifts his gaze with a light blush.
"That I work in a porn store? Yeah," Hyukjae finishes for him and tries to laugh about the situation but his laughter sounds forced and he cringes at it.
"You never told me," Kyuhyun says as he makes a pointless hand motion at Hyukjae who presses the collection of new x-rated DVDs tightly against his chest.
"Would you?" he asks in return, meeting Kyuhyun's embarrassed look with one of his own. The younger one shakes his head carefully, inwardly telling his friend he would never even dare to work here, and offers a small smile that lightens the mood immensely.
"It's not all the time, you know, just most of the time," Hyukjae clarifies straight away that he is not a full time employee. He is able to return the hesitant smile on Kyuhyun's face before the awkward moment returns, because unlike Hyukjae, Kyuhyun has no apparent reason to be here.
Hyukjae sees a moment to fall back in his old behaviour and picks a random DVD from the pile pressed in-between his arm and chest, wiggling the case at Kyuhyun teasingly. He doesn't know what Kyuhyun's preferences are, but he can guess and is pretty sure the large muscled men on the gay porn in his hand are far too intimidating for the virgin.
"Want me to help find you something nice?" Hyukjae teases with a gummy smile.
The blush returns to Kyuhyun's cheeks and he raises a hand to smack his friend, but decides not to cause a scene in a store he has never entered before. Besides, he treated Hyukjae pretty badly last time they parted ways and though he doesn't voice that he feels apologetic, it makes him cope with the blonde's teasing instead. Therefore he simply shakes his head, hands in his pockets as he looks around the adult shop.
The seductive men on the DVD cover make Kyuhyun feel a little bit suffocated in his already thin attire. Though there is a pleasant breeze from the air conditioner, the heat only increases within Kyuhyun's body as his eyes rank over all the items in the store: books, DVDs, magazines, condoms, costumes, games (ones he is too prudish to play for a change), lingerie, lotions, toys and so much more.
"Are you here to buy something?" Hyukjae's question pulls Kyuhyun from his own world. He glances at his working friend with shifty eyes, feeling embarrassed and out of place in this kind of shop. Should he buy something? Kyuhyun isn't so sure about that and gives a small shrug.
"There must be a reason why you came though, and don't tell me you came searching for me, because even though I'd feel flattered: you didn't know I work here," the blonde male says with a lopsided grin.
"Just thought I'd get myself.. better educated," Kyuhyun finally confesses, hands fumbling nervously in his pockets.
He reveals them and sees they are clammy. The questioning eyebrow Hyukjae raises at him doesn't decrease the fast beating of his heart or the deep blush on his cheeks and he scoffs, snatching a random DVD from the rack beside him and eyeing it carefully. His eyes widen once he reads the summary of the porn movie. Men who love pain, the summary clearly says and after glancing at several small pictures provided on the back Kyuhyun realizes he is holding a fetish DVD.
Beside him Hyukjae makes an interested sound, body leaning closer to read the back of the case as well, but he doesn't get to when Kyuhyun steps back, seemingly claiming the DVD. Hyukjae looks surprised, but laughs while Kyuhyun quickly tries to dispose of the porn movie. It isn't his intention to buy the DVD, but Hyukjae urges him on teasingly.
"What's the matter? No need to feel ashamed, everyone has their own kinks," the blonde says and crouches to pick up several other movies that he is supposed to place in alphabetic order.
"Kinks?" Kyuhyun repeats as if it's the first time the word rolls from his lips. This is not the case, but he never thought of such preferences before so when Hyukjae asks him what his kink is, Kyuhyun inhales deeply and stays silent.
The employee purses his lips, eyes trailing over the wide variation of movies as he explains to the innocent Kyuhyun that kinks such as spanking, bondage, dominance and submission are most common amongst his customers. Kyuhyun feels his ears heat up at the words, images of his adventure with Sungmin on the beach and in the water causing for heat to gather in the pit of his stomach. Though he is still very inexperienced, Kyuhyun realizes that Sungmin has been leading the dates so far and that not only reassures him, it excites him as well to be handled by someone so confidently. In a way that's dominance and submission, isn't it? That's a kink, isn't it?
Kyuhyun ruffles his own hair awkwardly as he stands beside Hyukjae looking at the movies as if they're in a normal video shop. If only that is the case, Kyuhyun exhales shakily as his eyes land on a cover with two striking handsome men, one of them on his knees and his face pressed against the other's thighs. The expression on the man's face screams 'sex' with his mouth agape, head tilted back and eyes half-lidded as he stares at the other. The one standing has bleached hair and his hand in the other's dark locks, assuming tightly gripping the man's head while guiding his face to the obvious bulge in his tight underwear.
A hand reaches for this exact DVD, Hyukjae's hand to be precise. He noticed his friend's stare and inspects the cover with mild interest. When his eyes shift to lock with Kyuhyun's, the later looks away with a bright blush.
"Didn't expect you to like this one," Hyukjae breaks the silence and holds out the movie for Kyuhyun to take which the dark haired male does, though hesitantly.
"Well, why not? You said it yourself: everyone has their own kink," he replies defensively and frowns when the blonde snorts softly.
"Just figured you'd look for someone who resembled Sungmin," Hyukjae retorts in a way that causes for Kyuhyun's eyes to narrow.
"You don't like Sungmin?" Kyuhyun asks bluntly.
Hyukjae gives a shrug and sighs deeply. "We have some common interests," he mumbles before he looks around to make sure his boss is not around to scold him for chatting during work.
"You must know more about him," Kyuhyun presses on, taking a step closer to his blonde friend despite the other's sudden look of discomfort.
"What is there to say? He's older, no longer a college student unlike you and me, he works at his father's company at a position he probably doesn't deserve and that's all," Hyukjae says with a strangely monotone voice as he turns to face the rack of DVDs.
"That's all? That's all you know or that's all you want me to know?" Kyuhyun asks suspiciously, crossing his arms when his friend avoids his eyes.
"Look man, if you want to know more about him, go to the guy himself, you're dating him for crying out loud," Hyukjae refuses to face him as he speaks. He takes one DVD from the pile between his arm and chest and stuffs it into the rack with a rather harsh motion that makes Kyuhyun frown in slight concern.
"We haven't talked a lot during our dates.." Kyuhyun mumbles, the look in his eyes reflecting confusion as Hyukjae glances at him and then abruptly walks away. The younger male follows him quickly, hand still clutching the DVD and jaws clenched. Hyukjae's attitude is annoying him to no end, but because they have been friends for so long already Kyuhyun suppresses the fury within him.
"We haven't talked a lot either, lately."
Kyuhyun stops walking when Hyukjae does and he waits for his friend to turn around, but he never does and chooses to get behind the counter instead where he busies himself with paperwork. Kyuhyun wonders if he is truly supposed to read through the pages or if he's deliberately avoiding conversing with him.
The young male leans over the counter, bending his body in ways that will hopefully grant him the view of Hyukjae's face as the blonde male turns slightly. By the deep crease on Hyukjae's forehead and his unfocused eyes, Kyuhyun concludes that his friend is truly searching for excuses not to face him. Growing angry, Kyuhyun slams the movie on the counter without a word, silently demanding Hyukjae turns toward him to serve him as a client.
"Look at me!" he even demands, surprising himself and Hyukjae with his harsh tone.
Slowly Hyukjae turns around, placing his hands far apart on the counter. He leans on them as he leans forward, eyes now on Kyuhyun's eyelevel as he does as told: looking at Kyuhyun. The deep frown on Kyuhyun's brows stays as they stare at each other with several inches between their faces.
It's not something uncommon and therefore Kyuhyun feels less uncomfortable than he'd be if Sungmin was to lean in to him like this, but this isn't Sungmin, it's Hyukjae, the one who is supposed to support him through his first serious relationship! All he has done so far is interrogate him and nothing more, is that truly all Hyukjae is planning to do? Rather than being happy for Kyuhyun it looks like Hyukjae is bothered by his interest in Sungmin and Kyuhyun can't figure out why.
And how is he going to find out? Not with help from his so-called best friend, that's clear now. It's the first time Kyuhyun feels like Hyukjae is keeping something from him, there's something he's not telling him and that makes it difficult for him to keep their eyes locked. His eyes shift down to the movie he is about to purchase.
"That'll be 12,000 won," Hyukjae's voice suddenly says and it startles Kyuhyun, because the silence was so thick before.
Reluctantly Kyuhyun reveals his wallet and, similarly to the movie, smacks the bills on the counter. It's a pathetic way to vent the growing anger within him. Kyuhyun understands people have their little secrets, but this, whatever it is, it doesn't feel like a little secret. Hyukjae is stubborn however, treating Kyuhyun like an everyday customer as he gives him his change and wishes him a good day.
"Enjoy the movie," Hyukjae adds before he turns his back to Kyuhyun once more.
Moments later the younger one is out of the adult shop, DVD hidden in a small plastic bag as he stomps to his car and slams his door shut after sitting down. His eyes are wild and stare intently at the front of the shop, but his lips form a thin line.
First thing he does when Kyuhyun comes home is stomp his way up the staircase and to his room, slamming the door like a child that got sent to his room. He makes a lot of noise and strains his ears, silently concluding his mother isn't home or she would have scolded him by now. After several deep breaths Kyuhyun lowers his head and sees that he is still holding the white plastic big in which the porn movie rests. He raises it and wants to throw it onto his bed, but changes his mind. Though he's not in the mood to look at porn, Kyuhyun hopes it will take his mind off of Hyukjae for a little. Yes, now it's time to enjoy, not to frown and grit his teeth.
Step one: thoroughly inspect the house for parents or sibling. Step two: stare out of the window of his room before yanking at the curtains, blocking out unwanted spectators and the sun. Step three: gather the tissues and lotion.
Kyuhyun blushes as he reaches for his nightstand where he keeps a small bottle of lubricant. He grabs it with a huff, telling himself not to back down, because he is all alone and spent money on this thing so he might as well see if it was worth it. Still nervously he takes the disk from the case and inserts it in his DVD player, sitting back on his bed with the remote in his hand. The bright light from the screen makes his eyes squint, but they widen when instantly moaning erupts from his speakers. Quickly he lowers the volume, heart pounding against his chest even if he is all alone in the large mansion. He sighs deeply, and clicks through the menu, eyes lingering on the teasing preview pictures that make the moaning and grunting of the actors that much hotter.
With a hot blush on his cheeks, Kyuhyun shifts on the bed, teeth sinking repeatedly in his lower lip. Arousal is already making his jeans a bit confining, but Kyuhyun refrains from touching himself and he hits the play button. The title of the movie appears in giant pink font that matched the colour of Kyuhyun's cheeks. He scrunches his nose at the hotel room that is displayed next, the blonde male from the cover casually sitting on the bed with what appears to be a menu on his lap.
"Room service, pffft.." Kyuhyun rolls his eyes as the title of the movie gives away all there is to give away for soon there is a knock on the door and the second male on the cover appears rolling a trolley stacked with food into the room. The two main characters of the cheap porn movie have already been introduced. Not soon after the dark haired male sums up the other's order and presents him the food, the blonde male states he wants to skip to desert.
An amused chuckle rises in Kyuhyun's throat, but he nearly chokes on it when the man with the bleached hair starts to roughly undress the other, ripping at clothing and sending buttons everywhere. They kiss passionately, tongues swirling visibly and teeth nibbling on lips. It reminds Kyuhyun of his heated kisses with Sungmin and how aroused he was just from the man's hands rubbing sun block on his body. Kyuhyun gulps when the dark haired man moans out with the other's calloused hands yanking on his shorts to reveal an already hard, long cock.
His own is in a similar state by now and as the two figures on his screen engage in another heated kiss, Kyuhyun fumbles with his buckle and zipper, easing his hand underneath the garments that suppress the pulsing length in-between his legs. A shaky moan escapes from his slightly parted lips, his other hand supporting his weight as he reveals his arousal and gives it several light strokes.
"I get so horny just thinking about your lips on my cock, get on your knees, boy," the blonde man pants hoarsely, thumb sweeping over the other's swollen lower lip as he speaks.
As expected the blonde is the dominant one, barking orders, and it doesn't take long before the submissive one sinks to his knees and looks up with wide begging eyes.
"Yes, I want to suck it," the dark haired man calls out pleadingly and Kyuhyun shivers.
The hand around his throbbing flesh tightens as he watches the naked man undress the other as well, hands sliding up and down a well toned chest until the jeans slip down a slim waist. Another ridiculously long erection appears, but just shortly, because the blonde man orders the other to lick and suck it. Eager to please, the man's tongue spreads generous amounts of saliva on the long shaft, lips curling around the leaking head.
Kyuhyun watches with half-lidded eyes and parted lips as the submissive man works the cock down his throat. Amazed, Kyuhyun takes a moment to admire the man as he jerks at his own erection and wonders if he will ever be able to do such a thing. It doesn't look difficult, bobbing one's head up and down, hands on either hips, thighs or palming the sack in-between.
Moans fill the four walls of his room, Kyuhyun's included as his vision begins to blur until all he can see is a spot of white representing the dominant's head and a dark spot moving rhythmically. The longer he stares at the white spot the more it begins to remind him of Hyukjae's dyed hair. Kyuhyun grunts softly, trying to block the images of his friend while his hand is still erratically jerking on his pulsing length. No, that guy is the last person he wants to think about, especially when he's masturbating, damn it!
Much to Kyuhyun's horror Hyukjae is stuck in his mind and his imagination turns the entire world upside down after his eyes close. The moans of the men on his screen create a vivid image where the blonde man is no longer a stranger, but the man he befriended so many years ago. Kyuhyun gives a small gasp, hand stopping on his arousal and he squeezes his eyes shut tightly.
"Go away, go away.." he mutters breathlessly, his cock giving a heavy throb when the image in front of his eyelids only becomes more erotic with himself on his knees, lips around Hyukjae's cock.
His hand resumes its stroking motion when the throbbing starts to hurt. Kyuhyun hangs his head, ears and cheeks burning bright red as he hears the dominating man from the movie order the other to turn around and raise his ass in the air. His eyes finally snap open after imagining Hyukjae's lips moving, pronouncing those exact words.
Though already shocked, the ringing of his phone nearly gives him a heart attack. Kyuhyun pants harshly as he searches for the remote to pause the movie before trembling hands raise his mobile. The name displayed on the vibrating device kills his erection instantly.
"S-Sungmin, hey" Kyuhyun answers the call with a voice that sounds terribly strained.
"Hey, sorry it took a while before I had time to call," Sungmin's apologetic voice seeps through from the other side of the phone.
Kyuhyun lets himself fall back on his bed with a sigh, eyelids heavy, but he is afraid more of Hyukjae will appear if he closes his eyes for too long. He stares at the ceiling instead when Sungmin asks him if everything is alright.
"Just tired," Kyuhyun mumbles in return, heart beating loudly in his ears.
"I see, sorry, did I call at a bad time?" the light voice asks kindly and Kyuhyun finds himself smiling slightly with a faint blush on his cheeks.
"No, it's okay, I.. I was waiting for your call, actually," Kyuhyun bites his lip and lifts his hips from the bed to pull his underwear and jeans back in place.
There is an amused chuckle from Sungmin that makes him shiver and then Sungmin's teasing voice makes him blush as he clarifies that Kyuhyun is allowed to call him as well if he wants to so desperately. Kyuhyun clears his throat embarrassedly, thankful that their conversation enables audio only, because he would have died on the spot if Sungmin had caught him masturbating.
"I know, I just didn't.. I mean, I wasn't sure if you wanted to.. arrange another date after last time," Kyuhyun confesses awkwardly and rubs his face tiredly.
"Mm? Why wouldn't I? I enjoyed our time together at the beach," Sungmin replies with a slightly lowered voice that makes Kyuhyun swallow thickly.
"I did, too," he replies quickly and sits up, blushing as Sungmin chuckles into his ear again.
The brunette stares at his screen while Sungmin suggests different locations to meet up for a third date. Bowling, visiting COEX Aquarium or the theatre? But wait, Sungmin has more options to choose from and Kyuhyun stays silent as he moves through his room, fingers hesitating when wanting to press 'eject' on his DVD player. With one long last look at the arousing position of the men in front of him Kyuhyun removes the disk and hides the porn movie in his drawer underneath his underwear. While he is rummaging with these garments he decides a change is best as his boxers has several stains from his precum.
"So, what do you think?" Sungmin's voice suddenly asks and Kyuhyun slightly panics, flailing the pair of underwear in his hand as he tries to remember whatever Sungmin told him to choose from.
"I-um, mm," Kyuhyun replies with hesitantly, his mind fogged with screenshots of the porn he watched minutes ago. Room service, what a ridiculous name and theme for a porn movie, but it helps Kyuhyun to make a decision without further stretching the awkward silence that is consuming their conversation.
"Let's dine somewhere," he says confidentially, looking forward to a date spend with Sungmin after the sun goes down.
"The restaurant option? Sure, I'm always in to taste new cuisine, what about you?" Sungmin asks approvingly of Kyuhyun's decision.
"New cuisine? Yeah, I suppose," he replies with a shrug that Sungmin will never see.
Sharing new experiences together is a great way to strengthen his bond with the alluring male. Furthermore this creates a somewhat private and calm situation for Kyuhyun to ask more about Sungmin's life, his likes, dislikes, hobbies, whatever. The man will probably take Kyuhyun some place new, to a restaurant with a new ethnic cuisine that neither of them have tried before and who knows, perhaps Kyuhyun will like the new taste.
Later that week, Kyuhyun gathered enough courage to enter the adult store where he last saw Hyukjae and where be purchased the porn video. He still feels out of place as he passes imposing toys and leather garments, but his eyes are focused on bleached blonde hair as he moves forward.
"Here, I don't want it anymore," Kyuhyun says nonchalantly as he approaches Hyukjae from behind.
The blonde turns around with large eyes, surprised to see Kyuhyun in this store once more and even more surprised that he is still talking to him. His eyes shift downward to the DVD the other is holding and he gives a shrug.
"We don't do refunds, what's bought is yours," he explains, but Kyuhyun insists that Hyukaje takes the movie from him. Hyukjae doesn't want it and holds his hands in the air when Kyuhyun continues to try and force him.
"Why do you want to return it? Didn't like it after all? Well that's too bad, some covers are misleading, but you don't seem bothered by that," Hyukjae says a bit roughly and steps away from Kyuhyun.
"Yah! What's that supposed to mean?" the brunette asks with an offended look. He remembers Hyukjae warning him about something in the car, something about looks that might be deceiving. A deep frown appears on Kyuhyun's face and he pushes the movie against Hyukjae's chest.
"Leave Sungmin out of this! In fact, I came to return this because you were right: I indeed want one that has a guy that looks like Sungmin, not you!" Kyuhyun bellows angrily and after Hyukjae stays silent he lets go of the porn DVD and turns around, leaving the adult store like he did last time: on stomping feet.
The blonde male feels a blush cover his cheeks when other customers eye him suspiciously. Kyuhyun made a big scene and forced Hyukjae to take back the cheap porn movie. When Hyukjae looks down, he notices once more that one of the men has bleached hair much like his own. He tilts his head and thinks for a moment, replaying Kyuhyun's words in his head. There's an instant explanation for his confusion, but Hyukjae shakes his head, refusing to believe such a thing.
A guy that looks like Sungmin, not you: what does that mean, exactly?
It can't be, Kyuhyun thought of..him?
My First..?