Wimp
Its been an odd sort of day.
We had a big team reshuffle at work. Dan, who expressed his preferences for both team mates and team leader, got none of his. I wasnt really bothered about who was in my team but just wanted a good boss. I got Cherylle,w hom I have now and whose awesome, so Im very pleased, cause shes the best T/L ive had and I hope I stay with her.
I dont know if anyones been following this, but home cell has felt like its just swamping me lately and I cant talk to Emma. She started asking questions about the weekend and i felt God say Keep Your Mouth Shut. So I did. She has changed, not for the worse but just changed. Its like theres a shiny plastic cover over everything. But ive been praying for a co leader and wondering what Im meant to do with everything. Ive been saying I can make it tilt hursday, i can make it til thursday. Then Pete messaged and said he was working late and wouldnt be able to make it. I just wanted to cry and did, I walked back to my car and cried, called Lydia and drove to hers in tears, opened the door and got a hug from her just in tears. It wasnt just Pete not being able to see me, im not that pathetic, its just sort of the icing on a crappy cake and pushed me over the edge. It was like how much more am I meant to take? Lord I know You have a plan for me, but I dont really know where it is right now. I wish You'd move for me Lord. Show me that the people I want to care, care, dont leave me with the same old empty people offering empty promises.
We had a big team reshuffle at work. Dan, who expressed his preferences for both team mates and team leader, got none of his. I wasnt really bothered about who was in my team but just wanted a good boss. I got Cherylle,w hom I have now and whose awesome, so Im very pleased, cause shes the best T/L ive had and I hope I stay with her.
I dont know if anyones been following this, but home cell has felt like its just swamping me lately and I cant talk to Emma. She started asking questions about the weekend and i felt God say Keep Your Mouth Shut. So I did. She has changed, not for the worse but just changed. Its like theres a shiny plastic cover over everything. But ive been praying for a co leader and wondering what Im meant to do with everything. Ive been saying I can make it tilt hursday, i can make it til thursday. Then Pete messaged and said he was working late and wouldnt be able to make it. I just wanted to cry and did, I walked back to my car and cried, called Lydia and drove to hers in tears, opened the door and got a hug from her just in tears. It wasnt just Pete not being able to see me, im not that pathetic, its just sort of the icing on a crappy cake and pushed me over the edge. It was like how much more am I meant to take? Lord I know You have a plan for me, but I dont really know where it is right now. I wish You'd move for me Lord. Show me that the people I want to care, care, dont leave me with the same old empty people offering empty promises.