SEEKING POINTLESS PERFECTION
It's funny how answers just come to you like a stray bullet. But these answers are the ones you want that shoot you right in the heart.
There had to be clarification.
Months and months of a lot of emotion I never spoke of or heard of, and it all makes sense. I know when it went wrong and better yet, I know why.
Steps have to be made and things just are, and who knows if they ever will be again, but I am ok with it all. I feel as though I became something else tonight and perhaps it's a step in the right direction.
I am able to focus on me and he is able to focus on him, something neither of us have done.
And there are so many things I am excited to tackle, that before I was scared to death to even confront. But once again, I have found courage.
I have already made some mistakes in how to handle myself, that won't happen again.
I am no longer lonely.
And I am no longer eager to leave this town. Time heals.
But time in this case, is the fact that friendship will remain, despite what was said.
I am so blessed and thankful.
So, I have created a list of things to accomplish for myself and things to focus on.
Writing, health, friendship, family. That is all I need right now, and the task at hand is pretty large.
Thank you, void.
♥
There had to be clarification.
Months and months of a lot of emotion I never spoke of or heard of, and it all makes sense. I know when it went wrong and better yet, I know why.
Steps have to be made and things just are, and who knows if they ever will be again, but I am ok with it all. I feel as though I became something else tonight and perhaps it's a step in the right direction.
I am able to focus on me and he is able to focus on him, something neither of us have done.
And there are so many things I am excited to tackle, that before I was scared to death to even confront. But once again, I have found courage.
I have already made some mistakes in how to handle myself, that won't happen again.
I am no longer lonely.
And I am no longer eager to leave this town. Time heals.
But time in this case, is the fact that friendship will remain, despite what was said.
I am so blessed and thankful.
So, I have created a list of things to accomplish for myself and things to focus on.
Writing, health, friendship, family. That is all I need right now, and the task at hand is pretty large.
Thank you, void.
♥