My mind wonders as I'm trying not to fall in love with you

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After an awful week, today wasn't that bad. I went out with my mom for the day and I thought it was going to be bad. But it wasn't. My mom and I went out to lunch and I saw the beautiful alyssa there and I waved to her. Then we sat and had this looooong talk about how im acting at home and why im sad and stuff it was long but I learned some things. After we went to the bookstore and I got some more books then walmart. where some guy in a wheelchair with piercings thought it was funny that I got the cart stuck in the a pop tart display. I was like crapping myself trying to get it out cause one of the wheels were stuck and it was making this huge ass sound. Then she let me drive around the parking lot at the mall and I did okay people were watching me though and laughing. It wasn't to bad and I came home and talked to carly on the phone and she was so happy and laughy it was weird. But great. Meghan's sad too and I feel so bad I want her and him to be together I love them together there so perfect for eachother. Im really random today. I keep thinking about the boy who likes me and everyone is telling me to go out with him im not sure I don't wanna get hurt all my friends around me are so hurt. And I don't know if I can go through that right now I just don't

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You can't live to make mistakes
When you're dead and gone
With your heart held in my head
The memory of your bloodstains
All over broken picture frames

How could you tell me that I was wrong?
When you would have done the same
Toy with emotions until they're gone
You would have done the same

I stole your heart
Ripped it out
And smashed it on this floor
You have no need for such a useless thing
Broken, forever more.

Life after this
Theres no such thing
You replace my thoughts
With these painful memories