May 24, 2005 13:46
How sad it is when you spill your guts on the paper.
It only neglects you and never relieves.
In every corner and space I search for you,
I've only found your vocal cords.
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most.
All day your songs spin me into a romance repeatedly to the sky.
Scream over and over again repeatedly to the sky.
In every corner and space I search for you........
My mom let me stay home today. Because the power was out. I guess the fact that you can't get a shower in the morning allows you to stay home. Whatever I was happy about it. I fell alseep last night in the basement around 8:30 with music playing, after a krispy creme donut, I was so cold. and still am. I cannot believe that the power was out that long, it keeps raining and I am wondering if it has stopped by now. so today I kept sleeping and waking up, and I read too, wrote around 5 songs. And finally the power came back on around a half hour ago. I don't feel to good today, I probably never do. people get sick of me when I say that, so im sorry. And besides sleeping and reading I have been taking pictures, of outside, inside. I have decided that I have no life. It is offical. I haven't been updating this lately probably because no one writes in their'ss anymore. but im gonna keep writing, im sure no one even reads this but its nice to write get everything out, but in reality it's just telling yourself your problems and making you think about them worse. i want everyone to be happy and be okay, I want everyone to feel like there happy and that someone really does care about them out there...I hate feeling like I should be someone else. And if I was smeone else I would feel better. it's just wrong.