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Okay, am I the only one who believes I'm fucked up? Certainly not, so feel free to tell me. Or smack me with a brick. Ah yes, JUST FUCKING KILL ME!!! Sorry... a little depressive right now. Seriously, there's so much shit going on I can't handle it. I've lost so many friends over the summer, I'm in love with a guy I have to wait 2 years to see, I

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[anonymous]

theres nothing wrong with obsessive compulsive disorder lol..i may be doing it as my topic for my report in biology ;) and.. about the clown thing..yeah at hot topic i saw a really cool pin that said "i cant sleep, the clowns will eat me" and yeah i thought of you and that was kinda funny..and no you dont complain too much..if you dont say how you feel youll only feel worse..and if you did complain to much you know i would probably yell at you anyway cuz im just cool like that :)..and you dont suck at drawing because those pictures you drew on the very lovely magnathinger was very spiffy and i like them very much <3 also, theres nothing wrong with being organized because whenever im not organized i end up paying for it later..and your not too shy around people..you talk to random people all the time..im shy around people..if ur so shy you wouldnt go punch a kid lol..even though Eric does need to be punched in the face :D youre also not that sensitive because the things people tell you give you a right to be as upset as you can get, so dont think youre overly sensitive because ur definatly not at all. people have to like the way you look because remember lately when whatsherface told you that you got really pretty over the summer in ur xanga? and so yes ur beautiful you make mike wanna lick you all over. just kidding..not really..anyway..ur singing isnt horrible..and if you dont think its good it has to improve while youre in chorus..and then you can have a really great voice along with youre guitar..and dont listen to what ur family says..the song you played does sound like jingle bells..and you just started so dont think ur a failure woman..a lot of ppl are afraid of clowns too..like just about everyone is and so its ok..just watch IT a few times :) and yes you do make good choices, you chose to be with mike and you chose not to murder me in my sleep so kudos on that..and yay im grateful for music too..and thats peachy well im in computers right now and i should probably be getting off in awhile but i ran out of things to say anyway but im bored and dont wanna close out..yes i know you dont care but why didnt you tell me some of this on the phone? you dont have to put urself down all the time youre a really great person and i love you as a cousinishway...ur like my best friend and the whole time i was "pissed" at you for $#@%$ with eric..i wasnt even that mad..i was more worried than anything because i knew you were probably gonna do something stupid..just never do it again because the last thing i wanna get is a phone call telling me youre in the hospital because you cut too deep..it sounds weird but im scared of what youre going to do to yourself..and whoever tells you youre fucked up is gay because youre not at all..well i guess im gonna go so something else for my remaining 10 minutes or comment in ur xanga..so check there maybe..idk i have nothing to do so toodles mah love