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eh updates, i guess.
so jeremy actually isnt mad at ME for once. actually it's kinda scary but i've been the one to calm him down to make him feel better and the one he can cry on i guess. he keeps giving me these huge death-grip hugs and i love those kinds..he's just giving them to me like he'll never be able to again... but his flaring temper is getting more and more...well FLARING! he got so mad at brandi for her getting attitude with him, i guess... and he punched his car and i got scared. it old ihm he's scaring me with the way he's been getting short VERY short very quickly now. i hate to think that i'm the one that made him that way with our huge fight :(. i'm thinking he just needs to get away from people for a lil while, like i did prom weekend..maybe (well im hoping) that i can be the one to help him...but him telling me that my hugs "suddenly relieve him of all stress" makes me happy :)--why i will never know-- i guess just knowing that im helping rather than hindering makes me feel like im worth soemthing.. im worth someone's time.. it's been so long since i felt like i'm worth someone's time.
but tomorrow we're supposed to go to the zoo, he moved it up a day which means, it'll just be me and him. whether he planned it that way or not.. idc.. i get to go to the club and show off my new dance if they play candyshop which i hope they do! if not ill incorporate it in there somehow... it's awesome i love it!i cant wait to actuall make a full dance for it! my first choreography job! since like ever! im so proud!
im having a major allergy attack and i wasnt anywhere near dogs or grass or anything so i dk why im dying... blahh...
well im tired so im gna go to bed now later guys :)!
so jeremy actually isnt mad at ME for once. actually it's kinda scary but i've been the one to calm him down to make him feel better and the one he can cry on i guess. he keeps giving me these huge death-grip hugs and i love those kinds..he's just giving them to me like he'll never be able to again... but his flaring temper is getting more and more...well FLARING! he got so mad at brandi for her getting attitude with him, i guess... and he punched his car and i got scared. it old ihm he's scaring me with the way he's been getting short VERY short very quickly now. i hate to think that i'm the one that made him that way with our huge fight :(. i'm thinking he just needs to get away from people for a lil while, like i did prom weekend..maybe (well im hoping) that i can be the one to help him...but him telling me that my hugs "suddenly relieve him of all stress" makes me happy :)--why i will never know-- i guess just knowing that im helping rather than hindering makes me feel like im worth soemthing.. im worth someone's time.. it's been so long since i felt like i'm worth someone's time.
but tomorrow we're supposed to go to the zoo, he moved it up a day which means, it'll just be me and him. whether he planned it that way or not.. idc.. i get to go to the club and show off my new dance if they play candyshop which i hope they do! if not ill incorporate it in there somehow... it's awesome i love it!i cant wait to actuall make a full dance for it! my first choreography job! since like ever! im so proud!
im having a major allergy attack and i wasnt anywhere near dogs or grass or anything so i dk why im dying... blahh...
well im tired so im gna go to bed now later guys :)!