he leaned over and kissed me on the cheek saying 'ill never leave you'
i liked this vacation, do not get me wrong... but all
the extra luggage [[i.e. depression anxiety]] was not
suppose to come along. i was up at night thinking about
everything and then i would have extremely weird dreams
that just killed me.
i called my bro the first day we were up there and he
was telling me how the band was just sitting around and
how it was pissing him off and you know what, its fucking
pissing me off too.
this is my house. im not even in the band and i
let you guys practice in MY garage. my brothers friends
and parents friends go 'if shes not even in the band
why would you even think about letting them practice
there'.. fucking give me and my family respect. stop
leaving your shit like cigarette butts and cups and
food all over the place. do not come over to sit and
watch movies. sometimes when you guys are recording its
okay. but for gods sake give us some respect. and especially
when im outta town and i have to hear this, im fucking
embarrassed. i love amanda and all, but dont bring her
to the practices if im not there. if im here its a
completely different story but tell me, how does it look
to my brother to have a band here and extra people.
the end.
anyway.. i dunno, i want to move. really bad.
i want my family to win the lottery so we can move to
wisconsin or something. there are a few people i have
an interest in keeping in contact with right now.
my girls.
ive figured out that what ive been feeling lately isnt
from pms, cuz then i wouldnt be feeling it anymore.
it hurt me when i was at alex's the other night lying in
the grass and no one knew i was there.. i heard what they
[[kyle mainly]] were saying and they all assume its just
pms but its so much more than that and it hurt me so
much.. its like im just sick of everyone. they all pretend
they understand and then behind my back complain.
well fuck you guys.. i will/can happily act the way
i have been lately for the rest of my life if you all
want me too.. cuz as of now thats how i feel i should
act towards you guys.
im going to caseys now cuz shes the only one who
cares enough to call me when im down or talk to me.
everyone else only has enough time for their girlfriends
and boyfriends to give a shit about anything else.
shoot me.
the extra luggage [[i.e. depression anxiety]] was not
suppose to come along. i was up at night thinking about
everything and then i would have extremely weird dreams
that just killed me.
i called my bro the first day we were up there and he
was telling me how the band was just sitting around and
how it was pissing him off and you know what, its fucking
pissing me off too.
this is my house. im not even in the band and i
let you guys practice in MY garage. my brothers friends
and parents friends go 'if shes not even in the band
why would you even think about letting them practice
there'.. fucking give me and my family respect. stop
leaving your shit like cigarette butts and cups and
food all over the place. do not come over to sit and
watch movies. sometimes when you guys are recording its
okay. but for gods sake give us some respect. and especially
when im outta town and i have to hear this, im fucking
embarrassed. i love amanda and all, but dont bring her
to the practices if im not there. if im here its a
completely different story but tell me, how does it look
to my brother to have a band here and extra people.
the end.
anyway.. i dunno, i want to move. really bad.
i want my family to win the lottery so we can move to
wisconsin or something. there are a few people i have
an interest in keeping in contact with right now.
my girls.
ive figured out that what ive been feeling lately isnt
from pms, cuz then i wouldnt be feeling it anymore.
it hurt me when i was at alex's the other night lying in
the grass and no one knew i was there.. i heard what they
[[kyle mainly]] were saying and they all assume its just
pms but its so much more than that and it hurt me so
much.. its like im just sick of everyone. they all pretend
they understand and then behind my back complain.
well fuck you guys.. i will/can happily act the way
i have been lately for the rest of my life if you all
want me too.. cuz as of now thats how i feel i should
act towards you guys.
im going to caseys now cuz shes the only one who
cares enough to call me when im down or talk to me.
everyone else only has enough time for their girlfriends
and boyfriends to give a shit about anything else.
shoot me.