Oh dear.
Dear Reader-
I am warning you that part of this post will be emo- and even more annoying than that it will be ambiguous, or vague. I apologize ahead of time for you may even have the urge to say, "Cheer up emo kid!" after reading it.
Fondly,
*Kat*
I love the fact that after months of all the crap I've been through I feel as if I finally know what I want. But you know what? Of course it's something that I can't have in the slightest. Yet this weekend I had just a glimpse of it, enough to make me amazingly happy if even for a moment. Someone who made me feel special- feel sexy, and funny, and as if he really wanted to hear every word that I uttered, or watch every move I made. Okay that sounds creepy, but I could have danced with him all night long, or talked about nothing and everything 'til the sun came up (which it eventually did at 6:30). But, and this is a big but, he has a girlfriend. *insert brake-like noise here, "Scccrrtttt"*. So that doesn't mean we can't be friends and I can't secretly still have that amazing feeling around him. Only thing is that I think- well I partially know- he feels the same. Which makes things worse, making my feelings for him stronger. Maybe it was just one grand night and we'll just continue being friends, never talking of how close we felt toward one another.
Sigh. I bet she's absolutely beautiful. Or has some quality that is utterly unmatchable. Who knows. What I do know is that for one moment I felt like we were the only ones in the room, and that he made me feel special. I haven't felt that in a long time. At least I can have that feeling if nothing else.
Oh, and he's a yankee's fan- I could never bring him home to my parents! haha
Since I last wrote...
*I signed my summer away yesterday by registering for my OT classes. The first session my classes are M,W at 1:00 to which I will most likely be commuting- and the second session is at 8:30 on M, W, to which I may be staying on campus with Kristin, or secretly just staying with her on sunday and tuesday nights. I feel like everything has to be so complicated and drawn out lately. As in this whole summer situation, I'm sick of talking about it.
*Last week the girls and I signed up for housing for next year. Kristin and I will be staying in the same room, same suite. Annie will be taking Krista's old room, a single, and we've brought KA in to live in the other single. Therefore we will be getting two new roommates next year. Shall be interesting.
*Saturday was an absolute blast, I went to SAE's beach party (where they filled their basement with sand!) with Krista & Anner. Just wearing a tank top, skirt, and flip flops made me happy- and although I was initially worried about a few things the night turned out to be a great time. (despite a handful of creepy boys)
*Last weekend Kristin, Annie, & I went to Salem State to visit Shawn Mille who I absolutely adore. Sometimes I wonder if I had gone to Salem State (which I almost did) if I would have met Mille through Greg Quinn (who was his roommate freshman year), and if through Mille I would have become good friends with Kristin & Annie and the other woo state fly hunnies, haha. Life is strange.
*On Saturday of last weekend Evan and I went to DWC to vist the boys, melissa, & tami. Besides Justin getting sick, and Evan and I leaving ridiculously early in the morning, it was a great time.
*NFG/Reggie was a blast- Alex and I had a fun time dancing in the pit and getting bled on by Reggie, I ended up seeing some of the plymouth boys, (Brendan, Colby, Andy, Chris, Nate who crack me up. Congrats to Colbs & Andy who are coming here next year!) and I was jealous of Erica's friends- they were beautiful scene girls. I also awkwardly saw Steve, although I didn't see Lavin or his girlfriend(?) which I am thankful for.
*I'm excited for the fact that this weekend is a long one, to which I will hopefully get all my 'end of the semester' work done with.
*I'm also excited for the weekend following this because Evan asked me to his formal. (Should I wear my pink & black polka-dot dress {from dinner dance/lca spring formal} or the red one I wore to lca's winter formal?)
That is all for now. Sorry to bore y'all.
I am warning you that part of this post will be emo- and even more annoying than that it will be ambiguous, or vague. I apologize ahead of time for you may even have the urge to say, "Cheer up emo kid!" after reading it.
Fondly,
*Kat*
I love the fact that after months of all the crap I've been through I feel as if I finally know what I want. But you know what? Of course it's something that I can't have in the slightest. Yet this weekend I had just a glimpse of it, enough to make me amazingly happy if even for a moment. Someone who made me feel special- feel sexy, and funny, and as if he really wanted to hear every word that I uttered, or watch every move I made. Okay that sounds creepy, but I could have danced with him all night long, or talked about nothing and everything 'til the sun came up (which it eventually did at 6:30). But, and this is a big but, he has a girlfriend. *insert brake-like noise here, "Scccrrtttt"*. So that doesn't mean we can't be friends and I can't secretly still have that amazing feeling around him. Only thing is that I think- well I partially know- he feels the same. Which makes things worse, making my feelings for him stronger. Maybe it was just one grand night and we'll just continue being friends, never talking of how close we felt toward one another.
Sigh. I bet she's absolutely beautiful. Or has some quality that is utterly unmatchable. Who knows. What I do know is that for one moment I felt like we were the only ones in the room, and that he made me feel special. I haven't felt that in a long time. At least I can have that feeling if nothing else.
Oh, and he's a yankee's fan- I could never bring him home to my parents! haha
Since I last wrote...
*I signed my summer away yesterday by registering for my OT classes. The first session my classes are M,W at 1:00 to which I will most likely be commuting- and the second session is at 8:30 on M, W, to which I may be staying on campus with Kristin, or secretly just staying with her on sunday and tuesday nights. I feel like everything has to be so complicated and drawn out lately. As in this whole summer situation, I'm sick of talking about it.
*Last week the girls and I signed up for housing for next year. Kristin and I will be staying in the same room, same suite. Annie will be taking Krista's old room, a single, and we've brought KA in to live in the other single. Therefore we will be getting two new roommates next year. Shall be interesting.
*Saturday was an absolute blast, I went to SAE's beach party (where they filled their basement with sand!) with Krista & Anner. Just wearing a tank top, skirt, and flip flops made me happy- and although I was initially worried about a few things the night turned out to be a great time. (despite a handful of creepy boys)
*Last weekend Kristin, Annie, & I went to Salem State to visit Shawn Mille who I absolutely adore. Sometimes I wonder if I had gone to Salem State (which I almost did) if I would have met Mille through Greg Quinn (who was his roommate freshman year), and if through Mille I would have become good friends with Kristin & Annie and the other woo state fly hunnies, haha. Life is strange.
*On Saturday of last weekend Evan and I went to DWC to vist the boys, melissa, & tami. Besides Justin getting sick, and Evan and I leaving ridiculously early in the morning, it was a great time.
*NFG/Reggie was a blast- Alex and I had a fun time dancing in the pit and getting bled on by Reggie, I ended up seeing some of the plymouth boys, (Brendan, Colby, Andy, Chris, Nate who crack me up. Congrats to Colbs & Andy who are coming here next year!) and I was jealous of Erica's friends- they were beautiful scene girls. I also awkwardly saw Steve, although I didn't see Lavin or his girlfriend(?) which I am thankful for.
*I'm excited for the fact that this weekend is a long one, to which I will hopefully get all my 'end of the semester' work done with.
*I'm also excited for the weekend following this because Evan asked me to his formal. (Should I wear my pink & black polka-dot dress {from dinner dance/lca spring formal} or the red one I wore to lca's winter formal?)
That is all for now. Sorry to bore y'all.