update
a lot has happened in the last month, but after all of it, im in the same place i started for the most part.
i tried liking a girl that wasnt chelle. it didnt work out. i was sad for about a day and a half, but not anymore.
i work 7-3:30 now. waking up at 5 or 5:30 am sucks really bad. i have to be in bed by 10. im trying to take naps, however, being woken up twice a day by an alarm sucks, too. ill have to figure out something that works. but knowing echostar, ill have a new shift in a month or so anyway.
i was really upset about work and my girl situation at the same time and was considering moving back to CT. on that same day my dad told me that he was going in for surgery and that he needed me there. i was really upset about it. but then it turned out that he was overreacting and he'll be recoverred in 2 or 3 weeks anyway. im going up to visit, but ive decided to stay here. i need to find a new place, though, because i have to be out of here on 8/31. i guess i have some time.
ive been feeling like my life is one big boring routine lately, with nice times with friends speckled throughout. i thought of changing it with a new job, a new girl, a new living situation...but those are all really hard things to do. i still will look for a new job casually. i will find a new but similar living situation soon. ive always had better luck letting "fate" decide the girl issue. trying to put effort into liking/getting someone to like you was a new thing and i dont think i liked it, haha. so whatever on that issue. however, my new mission is to slowly get some sort of higher degree. it will cure my job problem--especially if i go for teaching, which i plan on doing. it will cure the routine problem, and i might even meet some interesting new people. plus if i stay at my current job, i think i can get them to contribute $2000 per year toward tuition, which will probably be about the amount ill spend. although im not sure about that. if i get really into it, ill just take out more loans and finish. we'll see. i think i only need 3 semesters but i have to look into the specifics.
so yea, i went through a down point but luckily it only really lasted a few days or maybe a week. im trying to stay positive now, which is something im usually okay at doing. sometimes lately i think about when i lived at centre plaza, and how much i loved every aspect of life then. i hope i can feel that way again.
i tried liking a girl that wasnt chelle. it didnt work out. i was sad for about a day and a half, but not anymore.
i work 7-3:30 now. waking up at 5 or 5:30 am sucks really bad. i have to be in bed by 10. im trying to take naps, however, being woken up twice a day by an alarm sucks, too. ill have to figure out something that works. but knowing echostar, ill have a new shift in a month or so anyway.
i was really upset about work and my girl situation at the same time and was considering moving back to CT. on that same day my dad told me that he was going in for surgery and that he needed me there. i was really upset about it. but then it turned out that he was overreacting and he'll be recoverred in 2 or 3 weeks anyway. im going up to visit, but ive decided to stay here. i need to find a new place, though, because i have to be out of here on 8/31. i guess i have some time.
ive been feeling like my life is one big boring routine lately, with nice times with friends speckled throughout. i thought of changing it with a new job, a new girl, a new living situation...but those are all really hard things to do. i still will look for a new job casually. i will find a new but similar living situation soon. ive always had better luck letting "fate" decide the girl issue. trying to put effort into liking/getting someone to like you was a new thing and i dont think i liked it, haha. so whatever on that issue. however, my new mission is to slowly get some sort of higher degree. it will cure my job problem--especially if i go for teaching, which i plan on doing. it will cure the routine problem, and i might even meet some interesting new people. plus if i stay at my current job, i think i can get them to contribute $2000 per year toward tuition, which will probably be about the amount ill spend. although im not sure about that. if i get really into it, ill just take out more loans and finish. we'll see. i think i only need 3 semesters but i have to look into the specifics.
so yea, i went through a down point but luckily it only really lasted a few days or maybe a week. im trying to stay positive now, which is something im usually okay at doing. sometimes lately i think about when i lived at centre plaza, and how much i loved every aspect of life then. i hope i can feel that way again.