frustrated
I'm having the shittiest luck trying to secure housing. It's so expensive right now and apparently I'm competing with married couples for one bedrooms and studios. I've seen like a handful of beautiful apartments and I've obviously failed to secure one. All of my friends are squared away with housing too which is great for them but often depresses me. Oh yeah and in like three-four weeks school starts up again which means that my friends are going to return to their lives at school. I'm like terrified for the obvious reason that I will miss their company sooo much. I'm also just scared that at any moment now life is really going to pull us all apart and that'll be tough on me cos I have no one else to gravitate towards (not that I'd ever want to replace them, no one could, but I'd really have no one to help cope with losing them). I obviously don't want to dwell on it but whenever I'm alone those thoughts trouble me. Mur.