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[xjessx]

Being married sure isn't easy. I know Im not always innocent but I usually feel like Im the one being screwed over in this situation. I feel like my heart is bleeding and Im just acting tough and like I dont care to cover it up. It feels like we dont even try to make things right. Fight like hell and then pretend the next morning things are normal

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[forsaken]

I understand where you are comming from. I got married a year ago. (no kids yet because I refuse to take on another task I feel will be entirely my responsibility) Actaully, taking a Woman's Studies class has given me a lot of justification for my feelings of fustration and being unappreciated. We talked a lot about how women become the primary care givers. Maybe I can see if I can scan up those articles and post them on livejournal for you to read. They made me feel a lot better.

BTW, Riley is adorable looking and I love her name!

[xjessx]

Thank you! I'd appreciate it! Your smart to wait on the kids... that way you and your husband will be mentally ready to take it on as a couple. I wasnt planning on having a baby, it was an (wonderful) accident. She got here before chris and i really learned how to handle each other. (hah)

I hope we will get it someday

[muffinlegs]

if you want things to change, you should probably tell him.

[xjessx]

I try to but I just dont know what to say or how to make things right. I know we both need work but I just wish I knew what to do. If I knew how a married person was supposed to act then maybe I could try and change. Every married couple Ive known in my life has been severely screwed up. Im so used to just giving up on the relationship.

[muffinlegs]

Just say what you said here.
Honesty and communication are key to any relationship.
And if you truly think you can not handle talking about it, maybe you should see a counselor.
It's weird because you have a baby, so you need to give it a pretty good shot at working out.

[staceface]

hey cuz..
first of all i appreciate and respect you-100%. knowing you, youre probably the best mother in the world, and i know that you give that little girl everything you can.. and for that riley most definetly appreciates and respects you.
it really sucks that youre feeling this way, it makes me a little sad.
you should really talk to him, for the past 22 years of my life.. my parents have fought like hell and pretended like everything was fine the next day, its not so cool.i dont know chris-at all- but i know i dont want you to live like that. you deserve so much better.

love and tons of hugs.
you need to come visit. asap.

[xjessx]

Thank you for being so sweet. I know what you mean about living with the fighting.I think maybe thats why Im having so much trouble. You live what you grew up knowing. I dont know how to make things work. I dont want Riley to grow up and hide under her bed because shes scared of the yelling.

Chris is a good guy. We just dont know how to be married. sounds stupid but its just so confusing.

I love ya