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i was told yesterday i push people away. and you know what thats true. its a preemptive strike for me. if i push you away its cause i feel you shove first. but not hard enough to end things so i do it so i can control the hurt i go through. if that makes me selfish fine. this journal is dead. my other is alive and only a few know it i think i'll keep it this way. sorry for being shit.