Realize*
There isn't anything better in the world than listening to music full blast, shades on, windows down, and just singing away to the lyrics of songs that are so meaning full. Summer is a couple months away and i look forward to the day we get out of school and i am capable of doing that.
This is a new year that has actually shown me there is a reason to lift my head high and hope for the best. There has been a few occasions when i have felt i shouldn't be here and i am wasting my time trying to please the people around me. But thats how life is right? You have to work for what you want and if it doesn't turn out for you swollow your pride and move on. I have looked at things from a different perspective these past few days and i have finally realized i need to kick back from everything and relax. I have awhile till i have to be a hard working, responsible adult(even though i have to in my situation.) But that doesn't mean i shouldn't go out and have fun like i should be doing. Your only a teenager once, ya know? Lately i have been stressing over trying to please everyone and the only one i should be pleasing right now is myself. I am depriving myself of having fun, relaxing, hanging out with friends, and nick. I almost even quit my job, but that would be irresponsible and i would regret it later in life.
Lately i have been listening to country music. I have these weird moments where i am so full of energy and want to listen to rap, hip hop and what not, and on the other hand country is relaxing and makes me think of everything im missing out on. I am off probation and i am still living under these chains. I am going to start off on a new slate. No more worries, no more stress. I will not let anyone get to me and i am going to start living my life the way i feel i deserve