I find it hard to believe......
that my almost two year relationship is over in a flash yet I will stay friends with her no matter what its hard to bring the truth to my mind. It seems like I am trying to keep back the emotions which I am doing a good job of it but my thoughts are another thing which I havent been able to control. Many would probably expect me to revert into a love hating gothic mentally but there is no use in doing any of that. I have to focus on school making sure my grades stay up cant let it distract me yet its in the back of my mind poking me. Almost two fucking years thats something that I personally find impressive especially with how our relationship was really based on. So this was not really a shock to me.... maybe that is why i am handling it rather well go figure :/ but what can I do. I always told her I would be there for her even after the break of relationship because she is so close to me... and I will stand by that and be what I was before to her just a friend even if it hurts but I will because its the right thing to do. So I find it hard to believe its really over but I guess I need to face the facts really and move on... :(