it not fair
so its basically my family against me.i was talking to garrett online. and he was quite blunt.
Youngblood1991 (9:12:30 PM): stephy your also more emotional than i am
Youngblood1991 (9:13:22 PM): its who you are
mizzKINKYnizz (9:13:25 PM): meh
Youngblood1991 (9:13:27 PM): paranoid mofo
Youngblood1991 (9:14:16 PM): i didnt say you were delusional
Youngblood1991 (9:14:20 PM): i just said u were paranoid
mizzKINKYnizz (9:14:23 PM): how so?
Youngblood1991 (9:14:32 PM): u think every1 is out to get u
mizzKINKYnizz (9:14:44 PM): no i dont!
Youngblood1991 (9:14:53 PM): surrre
mizzKINKYnizz (9:15:02 PM): howw? like ... i dont see it!
Youngblood1991 (9:15:27 PM): hmm
Youngblood1991 (9:15:29 PM): perfect example
Youngblood1991 (9:15:37 PM): when mom told u to look into special ed
Youngblood1991 (9:15:43 PM): u got mad at her
Youngblood1991 (9:15:50 PM): like she was trying to be mean to you
mizzKINKYnizz (9:16:12 PM): which time?
Youngblood1991 (9:16:42 PM): every time
It goes on and on. i dont like it. my parents wanted me to volunteer over the break, and work with special ed kids. but few people wanted volunteers and the ones that did. didnt have good time slots. It interfeared with my working at the gym. which i cant give up. Garrett went on to remind me that my parenst offered to give me money... and cover everythign.
Youngblood1991 (9:20:59 PM): and they said they'd rather pay for ur expenses
Youngblood1991 (9:21:07 PM): and for you to figure out what you are doing with your life
Youngblood1991 (9:21:09 PM): than work
But if anyone has ever like been on their own. like in an apartment. youll understand.
and am i so horrible for wanting to not eat a sweet potato and a veggie burger for dinner every night?
am i a bad kid cause i want to go to the mall.
and anyone who has had a manicure or pedicure.. and you dont go for a while. your cuticles get all fucked up and then they start bleeding. and as for my little toesies. the same thing goes. its gross. but its the truth..
and i dont know about anyone else.. but i HATE asking for money. i absolutely hate it. so if i can avoid it. that would be great.
anyways. im just really upset now. the break is almost over, and then school starts.
i miss spending time with dustin, i want us to move in together. Life would be so much easier. we woouldnt have to plan ahead when to see eachother. because we would go to bed every night together. its not fair. thats all i want out of life. im finally head over heels and i just want to be around him all the time. i even enjoy watching him play video games. How odd is that. i HATE watching people play video games. but its him.. i cant get over him.. or how i feel.. i really dont have any words. and its scary. i cant explain it.
p.s. im so over school. i want to grow up and have a real life.
i have 2 semesters left. and then grad school.
fuck my life.
Youngblood1991 (9:12:30 PM): stephy your also more emotional than i am
Youngblood1991 (9:13:22 PM): its who you are
mizzKINKYnizz (9:13:25 PM): meh
Youngblood1991 (9:13:27 PM): paranoid mofo
Youngblood1991 (9:14:16 PM): i didnt say you were delusional
Youngblood1991 (9:14:20 PM): i just said u were paranoid
mizzKINKYnizz (9:14:23 PM): how so?
Youngblood1991 (9:14:32 PM): u think every1 is out to get u
mizzKINKYnizz (9:14:44 PM): no i dont!
Youngblood1991 (9:14:53 PM): surrre
mizzKINKYnizz (9:15:02 PM): howw? like ... i dont see it!
Youngblood1991 (9:15:27 PM): hmm
Youngblood1991 (9:15:29 PM): perfect example
Youngblood1991 (9:15:37 PM): when mom told u to look into special ed
Youngblood1991 (9:15:43 PM): u got mad at her
Youngblood1991 (9:15:50 PM): like she was trying to be mean to you
mizzKINKYnizz (9:16:12 PM): which time?
Youngblood1991 (9:16:42 PM): every time
It goes on and on. i dont like it. my parents wanted me to volunteer over the break, and work with special ed kids. but few people wanted volunteers and the ones that did. didnt have good time slots. It interfeared with my working at the gym. which i cant give up. Garrett went on to remind me that my parenst offered to give me money... and cover everythign.
Youngblood1991 (9:20:59 PM): and they said they'd rather pay for ur expenses
Youngblood1991 (9:21:07 PM): and for you to figure out what you are doing with your life
Youngblood1991 (9:21:09 PM): than work
But if anyone has ever like been on their own. like in an apartment. youll understand.
and am i so horrible for wanting to not eat a sweet potato and a veggie burger for dinner every night?
am i a bad kid cause i want to go to the mall.
and anyone who has had a manicure or pedicure.. and you dont go for a while. your cuticles get all fucked up and then they start bleeding. and as for my little toesies. the same thing goes. its gross. but its the truth..
and i dont know about anyone else.. but i HATE asking for money. i absolutely hate it. so if i can avoid it. that would be great.
anyways. im just really upset now. the break is almost over, and then school starts.
i miss spending time with dustin, i want us to move in together. Life would be so much easier. we woouldnt have to plan ahead when to see eachother. because we would go to bed every night together. its not fair. thats all i want out of life. im finally head over heels and i just want to be around him all the time. i even enjoy watching him play video games. How odd is that. i HATE watching people play video games. but its him.. i cant get over him.. or how i feel.. i really dont have any words. and its scary. i cant explain it.
p.s. im so over school. i want to grow up and have a real life.
i have 2 semesters left. and then grad school.
fuck my life.