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Reading my old posts is too hard for me, I can't make myself do it. I like myself way more now! I miss all of my beautiful friends that are now spread across the country. I am more broke than I have ever been, its keeping me up. His eye is on the Patrick. I feel like I peaked spiritually at 16 or 17 after getting dumped by my first real girlfriend. The rest of my life has been spent trying to get back to the state that I was in back then. I wish I could look forward to a time when I surpass that zeal and devotion, but I'm very skeptical that life has that in store. I think I know too much, have seen to many lame things, have done too many rotten things. All I do is talk crap. I really miss feeling the Holy Spirit. I really miss trying hard to be righteous in everything, some of them which are laughable to me now. I really miss all my sweet friends, especially back when they loved The Lord. I can't trust any girl with my heart again and I think I might be alone forever. I don't feel lonely anymore, haven't for a long time. I'm just used to not having anyone. That scares me.
My band is really good. Our EP is finished, and the artwork is so close. All I want to do is tour.
My sister Margaret is getting divorced right now and living with me. It's been so awesome, I feel like we are getting a brief sequel to our childhood right now. My other sister Emily is coming to visit us in a week, it will be so cool, no parents allowed!
My band is really good. Our EP is finished, and the artwork is so close. All I want to do is tour.
My sister Margaret is getting divorced right now and living with me. It's been so awesome, I feel like we are getting a brief sequel to our childhood right now. My other sister Emily is coming to visit us in a week, it will be so cool, no parents allowed!