I Will Never Let You Fall

[xhopeinanguishx]

I'm scared.

That's all that can be said. It hit me today that I am actually moving away, that I am leaving everything behind.

I know I can do it, but I'm scared to death.

I don't know what I'm going to do without Lisa there, I don't know what I'm going to do without my mom. They're the only two people I'm going to miss and I'm going to miss them really bad.

I'm not worried about meeting new people, I'm not worried about finding stuff to do with my free time-I'm very good at both of those. I'm leaving Indiana and I'm not looking back.

There are soo many memories here. Some bad, but most are good. I can drive around Avon and Plainfield and think of things I've done or people I've hung out with in a lot of places. Mainly, just Holly.

I just don't understand how up until today, I wasn't frightened, and now I'm scared to death.

Things I'm not going to miss:

-Most people I've hung out with or called friends.
-The weather.
-The local music scene.
-The lack of stuff to do.

Things I'm going to miss:

-My mom and Lisa.
-My room.
-My mom's land.
-My dogs.
-The backroads I get lost(purposely) on, on a weekly basis.