Come All You Weary
Things I would love to say to a certain select few people(putting these here for later use):
1. She does not love you! She never will, no matter what you do. She can sleep with who she likes. You're an amazing artist, but you'll be nothing more than a salesman. Out of everyone, you have the most potential, but you're doing nothing about it. And don't you even dare say that I am selfish! Who was there for you when you needed someone to bitch at? Who was there to take the ass end of ALL of your jokes? And who didn't say anything back, just let it happen? That's right, it was me. I've listend to you bitch and moan and crack jokes at my expense for years, I think it's time I had the right to be a little selfish.
2. GROW A PAIR. You had it perfect up at BSU, but because of your fears, you couldn't stay up there. I understand fears, I fear as much as the next guy, but I don't let them get the best of me. Apparently, you do. So, now you're going to Ivy Tech, for what? To waste money? Because I don't really see you studying for much of anything. Also, if you like a girl, then tell the girl, don't wait months and months to finally let her know that you have been subtly flirting with her the whole time. No one is going to pick up on that, they're just going to think you're being a good friend. Hence the reason every girl you really wanted to be with has said no, but wants to remain friends.
3. YOU SHOULD PROBABLY GROW A PAIR TOO. I mean seriously, every time I've hung out with you in the past several months, all you've done is what I've wanted to do. I mean, at some point you had to have wanted to do something else, but you didn't speak up. Also, you should probably start thinking for yourself, because doing what everyone else thinks is best isn't really working out for you. Stop wearing those fucking fake sleeve things, you know the ones that make it look like you have tattoos? Yeah, those. THEY'RE FUCKING RETARDED. They do not make you look any cooler, they just make you look like a tool. Go get some real ink. Oh and I can tell you now that little plan you have for your girlfriend and you, probably isn't going to work. Are you serious? There's no way you can pay for an APT and her school(why would you ever do such a thing?!) at the job you currently work at. Besides, I have feeling all of it was her idea, which means you're getting used-but hey, it's your money, right?
4. Check yourself into a psych ward. You need it. You're fucking crazy, as crazy as they come. Don't stop taking your meds, ever. Get help. Stop being a pathological liar. The "I'm a crazy girl, guys treat me like shit because I do nothing, and I swear I don't bring on it myself" act is only going to last so long. Because honestly honey, you make guys run for their lives and you bring everything on yourself. You are the reason a lot of girls get a bad rep.
5. FUCKING VENT. The reason you can't sleep is because you don't vent, ANYWHERE. No, punching shit is not venting. You have soo much built up shit, you need to let go of some of it eventually. And there has always been plenty of people to listen. Seriously, I'm worried about your health.
6. I love you girl, you're the one person that has stuck by my side through all of the shit in the past year. Stop doing drugs, you're already crazy enough. Stop the fucking nervous laugh, it pisses me off. If you're going to talk the talk, you better walk the walk. Seriously, the reason that I haven't slept with you since the first time is because a)I felt like shit for doing it and b)it's pretty close to the worst sex I've ever had. Reason that I've never told you any of this? Because you would fall apart, because I love you to death, and because I need you to stay sane(you and I both).
7. I love you. You've been there my whole entire life. I've taken you through soo many ups and downs, and I'm glad you are soo forgiving. You've supported my ass for far too long, it's my turn to repay the debt. I wouldn't have anyone else as my mother. You're the reason I am Kyle Fucking Jackass Quirk. I owe everything to you and words will never be enough. And I'm not sure at all how I will ever repay you. But I can start here by saying I love you and you're going to be the only one I will truly miss. Of course, I will be coming back as often as I can to visit you and only you.
8. I know that I've never been the best older brother. But man, you need to step up. You and I are way different, but so alike. You have to work at school, I don't. You can't give up now man, you only have a couple weeks to graduate, so get those grades up and don't pull a me. Actually go to school in the fall, don't waste two years sitting around, smoking, drinking, and jacking off. Sure, I've had some awesome memories in the last two years, but I think I would have much rather been at school.
God, I can not wait until I'm out of this hell hole. I can not wait to never have to see their faces again, except my Mom and Brosef.
1. She does not love you! She never will, no matter what you do. She can sleep with who she likes. You're an amazing artist, but you'll be nothing more than a salesman. Out of everyone, you have the most potential, but you're doing nothing about it. And don't you even dare say that I am selfish! Who was there for you when you needed someone to bitch at? Who was there to take the ass end of ALL of your jokes? And who didn't say anything back, just let it happen? That's right, it was me. I've listend to you bitch and moan and crack jokes at my expense for years, I think it's time I had the right to be a little selfish.
2. GROW A PAIR. You had it perfect up at BSU, but because of your fears, you couldn't stay up there. I understand fears, I fear as much as the next guy, but I don't let them get the best of me. Apparently, you do. So, now you're going to Ivy Tech, for what? To waste money? Because I don't really see you studying for much of anything. Also, if you like a girl, then tell the girl, don't wait months and months to finally let her know that you have been subtly flirting with her the whole time. No one is going to pick up on that, they're just going to think you're being a good friend. Hence the reason every girl you really wanted to be with has said no, but wants to remain friends.
3. YOU SHOULD PROBABLY GROW A PAIR TOO. I mean seriously, every time I've hung out with you in the past several months, all you've done is what I've wanted to do. I mean, at some point you had to have wanted to do something else, but you didn't speak up. Also, you should probably start thinking for yourself, because doing what everyone else thinks is best isn't really working out for you. Stop wearing those fucking fake sleeve things, you know the ones that make it look like you have tattoos? Yeah, those. THEY'RE FUCKING RETARDED. They do not make you look any cooler, they just make you look like a tool. Go get some real ink. Oh and I can tell you now that little plan you have for your girlfriend and you, probably isn't going to work. Are you serious? There's no way you can pay for an APT and her school(why would you ever do such a thing?!) at the job you currently work at. Besides, I have feeling all of it was her idea, which means you're getting used-but hey, it's your money, right?
4. Check yourself into a psych ward. You need it. You're fucking crazy, as crazy as they come. Don't stop taking your meds, ever. Get help. Stop being a pathological liar. The "I'm a crazy girl, guys treat me like shit because I do nothing, and I swear I don't bring on it myself" act is only going to last so long. Because honestly honey, you make guys run for their lives and you bring everything on yourself. You are the reason a lot of girls get a bad rep.
5. FUCKING VENT. The reason you can't sleep is because you don't vent, ANYWHERE. No, punching shit is not venting. You have soo much built up shit, you need to let go of some of it eventually. And there has always been plenty of people to listen. Seriously, I'm worried about your health.
6. I love you girl, you're the one person that has stuck by my side through all of the shit in the past year. Stop doing drugs, you're already crazy enough. Stop the fucking nervous laugh, it pisses me off. If you're going to talk the talk, you better walk the walk. Seriously, the reason that I haven't slept with you since the first time is because a)I felt like shit for doing it and b)it's pretty close to the worst sex I've ever had. Reason that I've never told you any of this? Because you would fall apart, because I love you to death, and because I need you to stay sane(you and I both).
7. I love you. You've been there my whole entire life. I've taken you through soo many ups and downs, and I'm glad you are soo forgiving. You've supported my ass for far too long, it's my turn to repay the debt. I wouldn't have anyone else as my mother. You're the reason I am Kyle Fucking Jackass Quirk. I owe everything to you and words will never be enough. And I'm not sure at all how I will ever repay you. But I can start here by saying I love you and you're going to be the only one I will truly miss. Of course, I will be coming back as often as I can to visit you and only you.
8. I know that I've never been the best older brother. But man, you need to step up. You and I are way different, but so alike. You have to work at school, I don't. You can't give up now man, you only have a couple weeks to graduate, so get those grades up and don't pull a me. Actually go to school in the fall, don't waste two years sitting around, smoking, drinking, and jacking off. Sure, I've had some awesome memories in the last two years, but I think I would have much rather been at school.
God, I can not wait until I'm out of this hell hole. I can not wait to never have to see their faces again, except my Mom and Brosef.