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Hi my name's melissa and I realize my most recent entries have been pretty damn pathetic.
I'm sorry about that. I'll try from now on to post more joyous and up lifting entries. However I am not here to make any promises, but simply to issue a warning.
WARNING: Due to drastic changes that have occured in my life recently; my live journal entries may not be suitable for those who are easily depressed or easily discouraged. Please do not take any of the comments out of context or to heart. I am most likely emotionaly distressed and do not entirely mean what I type.
ok with that legall hoopla taken care of I shall update briefly. I have orientation tomorrow at bennigans, on saturday i work 4-11 at gap.. last weekend i got second place in a red hacker at cmu. (also a lot of bruises). I feel useless these days and that probably is the cause to these pathetic entries... I'm try to feel better, and I am really. Just not completely, not really close to completely. devistation... its not easy to recover from. I know it's all on me now, i have to be cautious and try not to bottle things up and fake the happiness. I don't want to fake things, i want to genuinely be happy again...