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It seems like forever since ive updated. My life seems to have been so hectic lately so i will give brief (very brief) accounts of whats been going down:
So the 14th of july was the last time i updated.
15th july: Today was becks birthday. I had to get up about 8.30!!! shit man. We went to the seaside! woooo! Southend to be exact, the most essex seaside resort ever. we went on peter pans playground, had lunch in a nice resturant, had donuts and ice, played in the arcades (where i was super ace on the dance machines), and then i fell asleep in the car on the way home.
16th july: I went ice skating with rach, scarlett and mog. It was comical, and me being the only one who could actually ice skate fell over! what a dick. I went into town and bought a white top and a vest top which i really couldnt afford. In the evening i got fuck faced (drunk). I was talking to sam alot, hes so nice and rather sexy. Paul was getting really and by that i mean REALLY stressed and jealous. He ended up staying round mine, we ended up kissing and when i went to get a drink he fell asleep (he cant handle his drink like me).
17th july: I went to lakeside for like an hour where i bought a plain black top, a new purse, and some birthday stuff for michelle. In the evening it was Jims birthday party, at first i thought it would be shit but i ended up getting wasted with ellie (shes a lovely lass) and it was so funny and me and jim ate all the coloured icing off the cake (we could actually feel our hearts clog up). I slept on his floor only to wake up the next day in agony. What a piss.
18th july: Only had work today, couldnt handle anything else as i was still in lotsa pain.
19th july: Had work today, then in the evening i was meant to go DUKES GENISIS but alas i had a awful headache and plus matt turned up and totally pissed me off by sitting on a completely different table from us girlies meaning all the lads were left all lost. SO me, ali and scarlett had a chinese and video night. We got SEVEN!!! yes SEVEN videos: mona lisa smile, lost in translation, school of rock, manor creek house(?cant remember its name), punch drunk love, cheerleader massaca (for laughs), last house on the left (again for laughs). It was fun and girlie
20th july: had work again, then in the evening it was mikes leaving BBQ, i didnt stay long as scarlett and ali were bored as they didnt know anyone. I felt awful leaving as he was all like 'awwwww im going to miss you, you have to stay with me in newquay, you have TO!!!!!!' man that was tough as the bbd.
21st july (three months till my birthday):Had work till 7, then i caught the bus till billericy (bilbo) went round pauls and to the blue boar where all his friends were. I ended up drinking like 6 drinks in less than an hour and felt rather tipsy. Paul again got jealous of ryan and sam, although were not together or anything. Stayed the night at pauls and grimo tried to break into his house just for a laugh... oh... hilarious.
22nd july: Diabetes dvd filming at my house. Found out that my mum felt lik eshe was in mourning when i got diabetes, the advice she gave to other mothers/dads/guardians of children who get diabetes is to go off and cry and get your emotions out and then be strong for the child.... weird... and upsetting... she said its like losing part of a child, and having to start getting to know them again. But also gaining a whole different side of the child that is strong and brilliant. Sounds like she holds more resentment towards me getting diabetes than i do. I guess it has messed up our lives a bit, i dont know.
23rd july24th july: It was bay day at work (lots of bands played) and i had to work from 11 - 7. It was sooooo busy you wouldnt believe. Jay the manager had to call up people to come in a help as even though both me and the other girl working were pretty experienced we could handle all the people. I had a break at 3-4 where i met scarlett and we got sandwhichs to eat in the park. In the morning we went into town like at 9!!!! amazing! we got bubbles, alcohol, noodles, sweeties and other little stuff, it was wicked reminded me of the holidays. After work i met little drunken stuf and he drove me to paul the punks birthday bash. It was coolio, i got slightly drunk but the alcohol seemed to have very little effect :( paul was really wanting (not in the sexual way damn it). I feel really horny, havent had sex for months and months, its killing me, and i doubt i will get sex till uni as pauls a virgin and i doubt he would even do it as its a wimp. Haha i really really like him and lately more than anyone but still he is a wimp and nervous. Again he got jealous of sam. This sounds bad but i kinda think sam likes me, paul said that hes been doing alot of stuff he wouldnt usually.... and it always invloves me. Madness. I got about 2o mins sleep at about 6 in the morning. Jon, mog and rach just wouldnt sleep! Those 20 mins involved me sleeping outside with a give up the ghost zip up as a cover and a stinky pillow. I then decided just to go and play monkey ball 3 on the game cube, finding it shit at first but then really getting into it :D
25th july: Michelles actual birthday today. Stayed at pauls till 3ish, found out i had 60pounds stolen at the party. I was in tears, i wanted to use that to buy a new swim suit. We went to sams for a gathering, i felt exhausted and i really didnt know how to act around paul, whether to hug him or just talk so i ended up barely talking to him and talking to his friends instead! God what a mess. I didnt even look at him nor kiss him when i said goodbye.... i felt awful after that,
26th july: Today was pauls actual birthday. I was meant to go into town and hang with him, but when i woke up no one was home and no one was getting home till the evening :( it totally and utterly sucked like a cock. SO i sat at home all day watched 'funny girl' and 'matilda' and 'kissing jessica stein'.
27th july (today): I had dentist at 12, its going to cost 300pounds to whiten my teeth. I went to town with rach and michelles and had lunch at the bay.
I bought this wicked black lacyish morgan skirt 40quid down to 13!!! bargain!!! I also got fingerless gloves, new leggins as they went missing at a party (my friend has them), i bought a new razor, eye liner and.... something else...oh a morgan white scarf thing. brilliant.
I owe michelle for the skirt as i didnt have enough money on me, shes a total star.
Im planning to do up this plain denim skirt i have. Ive got thick black lace, white netting, white flower, glitter, gems... its going to be amazing.
OHHHHHHHHHh my personalised belt is in! fuck its going to be amazing, im going to get my dad to pick it up and im going to have it by thursday. Shit i cant wait... im going to wear it all the time.
Right this is enough.
Love and hugs
So the 14th of july was the last time i updated.
15th july: Today was becks birthday. I had to get up about 8.30!!! shit man. We went to the seaside! woooo! Southend to be exact, the most essex seaside resort ever. we went on peter pans playground, had lunch in a nice resturant, had donuts and ice, played in the arcades (where i was super ace on the dance machines), and then i fell asleep in the car on the way home.
16th july: I went ice skating with rach, scarlett and mog. It was comical, and me being the only one who could actually ice skate fell over! what a dick. I went into town and bought a white top and a vest top which i really couldnt afford. In the evening i got fuck faced (drunk). I was talking to sam alot, hes so nice and rather sexy. Paul was getting really and by that i mean REALLY stressed and jealous. He ended up staying round mine, we ended up kissing and when i went to get a drink he fell asleep (he cant handle his drink like me).
17th july: I went to lakeside for like an hour where i bought a plain black top, a new purse, and some birthday stuff for michelle. In the evening it was Jims birthday party, at first i thought it would be shit but i ended up getting wasted with ellie (shes a lovely lass) and it was so funny and me and jim ate all the coloured icing off the cake (we could actually feel our hearts clog up). I slept on his floor only to wake up the next day in agony. What a piss.
18th july: Only had work today, couldnt handle anything else as i was still in lotsa pain.
19th july: Had work today, then in the evening i was meant to go DUKES GENISIS but alas i had a awful headache and plus matt turned up and totally pissed me off by sitting on a completely different table from us girlies meaning all the lads were left all lost. SO me, ali and scarlett had a chinese and video night. We got SEVEN!!! yes SEVEN videos: mona lisa smile, lost in translation, school of rock, manor creek house(?cant remember its name), punch drunk love, cheerleader massaca (for laughs), last house on the left (again for laughs). It was fun and girlie
20th july: had work again, then in the evening it was mikes leaving BBQ, i didnt stay long as scarlett and ali were bored as they didnt know anyone. I felt awful leaving as he was all like 'awwwww im going to miss you, you have to stay with me in newquay, you have TO!!!!!!' man that was tough as the bbd.
21st july (three months till my birthday):Had work till 7, then i caught the bus till billericy (bilbo) went round pauls and to the blue boar where all his friends were. I ended up drinking like 6 drinks in less than an hour and felt rather tipsy. Paul again got jealous of ryan and sam, although were not together or anything. Stayed the night at pauls and grimo tried to break into his house just for a laugh... oh... hilarious.
22nd july: Diabetes dvd filming at my house. Found out that my mum felt lik eshe was in mourning when i got diabetes, the advice she gave to other mothers/dads/guardians of children who get diabetes is to go off and cry and get your emotions out and then be strong for the child.... weird... and upsetting... she said its like losing part of a child, and having to start getting to know them again. But also gaining a whole different side of the child that is strong and brilliant. Sounds like she holds more resentment towards me getting diabetes than i do. I guess it has messed up our lives a bit, i dont know.
23rd july24th july: It was bay day at work (lots of bands played) and i had to work from 11 - 7. It was sooooo busy you wouldnt believe. Jay the manager had to call up people to come in a help as even though both me and the other girl working were pretty experienced we could handle all the people. I had a break at 3-4 where i met scarlett and we got sandwhichs to eat in the park. In the morning we went into town like at 9!!!! amazing! we got bubbles, alcohol, noodles, sweeties and other little stuff, it was wicked reminded me of the holidays. After work i met little drunken stuf and he drove me to paul the punks birthday bash. It was coolio, i got slightly drunk but the alcohol seemed to have very little effect :( paul was really wanting (not in the sexual way damn it). I feel really horny, havent had sex for months and months, its killing me, and i doubt i will get sex till uni as pauls a virgin and i doubt he would even do it as its a wimp. Haha i really really like him and lately more than anyone but still he is a wimp and nervous. Again he got jealous of sam. This sounds bad but i kinda think sam likes me, paul said that hes been doing alot of stuff he wouldnt usually.... and it always invloves me. Madness. I got about 2o mins sleep at about 6 in the morning. Jon, mog and rach just wouldnt sleep! Those 20 mins involved me sleeping outside with a give up the ghost zip up as a cover and a stinky pillow. I then decided just to go and play monkey ball 3 on the game cube, finding it shit at first but then really getting into it :D
25th july: Michelles actual birthday today. Stayed at pauls till 3ish, found out i had 60pounds stolen at the party. I was in tears, i wanted to use that to buy a new swim suit. We went to sams for a gathering, i felt exhausted and i really didnt know how to act around paul, whether to hug him or just talk so i ended up barely talking to him and talking to his friends instead! God what a mess. I didnt even look at him nor kiss him when i said goodbye.... i felt awful after that,
26th july: Today was pauls actual birthday. I was meant to go into town and hang with him, but when i woke up no one was home and no one was getting home till the evening :( it totally and utterly sucked like a cock. SO i sat at home all day watched 'funny girl' and 'matilda' and 'kissing jessica stein'.
27th july (today): I had dentist at 12, its going to cost 300pounds to whiten my teeth. I went to town with rach and michelles and had lunch at the bay.
I bought this wicked black lacyish morgan skirt 40quid down to 13!!! bargain!!! I also got fingerless gloves, new leggins as they went missing at a party (my friend has them), i bought a new razor, eye liner and.... something else...oh a morgan white scarf thing. brilliant.
I owe michelle for the skirt as i didnt have enough money on me, shes a total star.
Im planning to do up this plain denim skirt i have. Ive got thick black lace, white netting, white flower, glitter, gems... its going to be amazing.
OHHHHHHHHHh my personalised belt is in! fuck its going to be amazing, im going to get my dad to pick it up and im going to have it by thursday. Shit i cant wait... im going to wear it all the time.
Right this is enough.
Love and hugs