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So someone made me join this thing called myspace.com, its just like friendster. Another scenester rating community, a online ego trip "oh i have more friends than you" how very cuntish. So is anyone a member and wanna be on my friends list? Oh go on... i feel so lonely.
Im pissing like a grandma today, ive decided just to leave my trousers undone. I do look stupid walking around my house but its so much easier.
It feels like it should be in the middle of the summer, or at least as though i was in spain becuase the atmosphere at the moment is very strange, very humid and i have that weird feeling of being in a european country.
Mother and father (haha) are back tomorrow from italy! Wooo, hopefully bringing back lotsa italian clothing, food, drinks, porn etc etc. I know i have 2 dresses and 2 pairs on the way, wooooooo one of them for my val (or prom for you americans). I dont know what to do about that, either go alone with friends or go with some guy aswell... but i dont know who i would go with? Theres lots of boys who would go with me, probably on the vague hope that they will get me fuckfaced and have sex with me (yes such a negative thing to say, but thats how i feel, what happened to the emotion and love? Maybe in my state i have pushed it all away, maybe its actually what i want?)
Sigh... I promise i will soon cheer up.
I cut my leg shaving today and its still stinging :(
Ive got into such a routine of having people over or going out or doing something in the day that ive felt so lost today. Ive just sat at home and done sweet fa. I feel like ive wasted my life (i know its only a day), and its almost 11 but because i havent gone to sleep till the early hours lately that im to awake.. its so strange. i need my body clock to go back to normal.
Im pissing like a grandma today, ive decided just to leave my trousers undone. I do look stupid walking around my house but its so much easier.
It feels like it should be in the middle of the summer, or at least as though i was in spain becuase the atmosphere at the moment is very strange, very humid and i have that weird feeling of being in a european country.
Mother and father (haha) are back tomorrow from italy! Wooo, hopefully bringing back lotsa italian clothing, food, drinks, porn etc etc. I know i have 2 dresses and 2 pairs on the way, wooooooo one of them for my val (or prom for you americans). I dont know what to do about that, either go alone with friends or go with some guy aswell... but i dont know who i would go with? Theres lots of boys who would go with me, probably on the vague hope that they will get me fuckfaced and have sex with me (yes such a negative thing to say, but thats how i feel, what happened to the emotion and love? Maybe in my state i have pushed it all away, maybe its actually what i want?)
Sigh... I promise i will soon cheer up.
I cut my leg shaving today and its still stinging :(
Ive got into such a routine of having people over or going out or doing something in the day that ive felt so lost today. Ive just sat at home and done sweet fa. I feel like ive wasted my life (i know its only a day), and its almost 11 but because i havent gone to sleep till the early hours lately that im to awake.. its so strange. i need my body clock to go back to normal.