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must kill siblings.
i'm mad. at dave. i haven't seen/talked to him in 3 days. grrr.
whatever. i don't like it when shelly has to call me, looking for him and he's not with me and i don't know where he is... i am NOT MAD at shelly... i'm MAD at him...
ash im-ed me... yayness... cos my away message was me bitching... she's so awesome...
this was my away message: " feeling useless.... unloved... and i honestly do not give a crap about mostly anything anymore.. this means sabrina is depressed... yea it would be nice to have someone to talk to but no body really cares right now so i'm out...side... digging... tightening that noose... figuritvly, of course... i'm not THAT depressed but i sure feel that way..."
yea... i was pissed off... feeling ignored... blah blah blah... anyway most of my anger is towards myself... inflicted upon myself by myself and i think i've lost it...been listening to the same song for the past hour... YES i'm sober...
so... BAND CAMP is playing at CBGB's on dec 7..at 7pm ($10)... i'm gonna be at rockafeller with school... i have to find away to sneak to CBGB's lol... i love those guys... lol
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many people have been all depressed and stuff and there is one person in particular that i'm guessing is in a blah-mode and i wish he would talk to me about what's wrong but i think that he doesn't take me that seriously and just sees me as a "kid"... i don't know... i just wish he would talk to me as a peer and not as a "kid"... damn...
cris m. and i are never going to talk again. ever. he hasn't returned one effin phone call... so i guess that's it... i'm so confused. you can't be friends with someone for 10 years -(yes 10 YEARS)- and then just stop talking to them all of a sudden... i'm so confused... and he really emotionally hurt me...
oh i saw AJ a few weeks ago... he was working the church rec... and i had to get a form thing for pinkie... so he looked for it and then i was going to leave and he was like "stay a while...so we can talk.." lol working there has got to be SOOO boring so i talked to him for a bit and then i had to go and whatnot...
i'm tired... siblings are bitching... they have their own comps and still insist on using mine... damn... oh well...
i'm mad. at dave. i haven't seen/talked to him in 3 days. grrr.
whatever. i don't like it when shelly has to call me, looking for him and he's not with me and i don't know where he is... i am NOT MAD at shelly... i'm MAD at him...
ash im-ed me... yayness... cos my away message was me bitching... she's so awesome...
this was my away message: " feeling useless.... unloved... and i honestly do not give a crap about mostly anything anymore.. this means sabrina is depressed... yea it would be nice to have someone to talk to but no body really cares right now so i'm out...side... digging... tightening that noose... figuritvly, of course... i'm not THAT depressed but i sure feel that way..."
yea... i was pissed off... feeling ignored... blah blah blah... anyway most of my anger is towards myself... inflicted upon myself by myself and i think i've lost it...been listening to the same song for the past hour... YES i'm sober...
so... BAND CAMP is playing at CBGB's on dec 7..at 7pm ($10)... i'm gonna be at rockafeller with school... i have to find away to sneak to CBGB's lol... i love those guys... lol
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo many people have been all depressed and stuff and there is one person in particular that i'm guessing is in a blah-mode and i wish he would talk to me about what's wrong but i think that he doesn't take me that seriously and just sees me as a "kid"... i don't know... i just wish he would talk to me as a peer and not as a "kid"... damn...
cris m. and i are never going to talk again. ever. he hasn't returned one effin phone call... so i guess that's it... i'm so confused. you can't be friends with someone for 10 years -(yes 10 YEARS)- and then just stop talking to them all of a sudden... i'm so confused... and he really emotionally hurt me...
oh i saw AJ a few weeks ago... he was working the church rec... and i had to get a form thing for pinkie... so he looked for it and then i was going to leave and he was like "stay a while...so we can talk.." lol working there has got to be SOOO boring so i talked to him for a bit and then i had to go and whatnot...
i'm tired... siblings are bitching... they have their own comps and still insist on using mine... damn... oh well...