Darkness has swallowed me whole.......
Today was very very very miserable....
I woke up around 9:30 and I went downstairs and did nothing. I couldn't eat all day. I was sooo lonely and just completely miserable. I feel so lost. All day I just sat around and did nothing but computer, phone, computer...etc. Then around 2 I went to my brother's boring soccer game. They won 3-1 w.e. don't care. Then at 4 I got my hair cut. It's shorter by like 3-4 inches. It's less annoying and just......well different. Then at 8 we picked up jesse and went to the movies. We waited for jane, jorge, nick, cassie, and kasey. We saw Scary Movie 3...it was stupid but hysterical. OMG I laughed so hard. The only thing was I hadn't eaten all day. I barely ate dinner and I didn't buy any popcorn, soda or candy. I just couldn't eat today. I don't know why. I'm slipping into what I did last year. I just couldn't take it tonight. Just all the pain and just.....::sigh::......cassie and kelly know what I'm talking about. Yeahhh, when I got home I came online and talked to them. I got some of my emotions out really. Yeahh shed a few tears, but then I felt like driving a knife through my heart. But as I said to cassie I wouldn't feel anything. I'll update tomorrow.....I can't type anymore. I need some sleep.....
Right now.....I just wanna |die|
I woke up around 9:30 and I went downstairs and did nothing. I couldn't eat all day. I was sooo lonely and just completely miserable. I feel so lost. All day I just sat around and did nothing but computer, phone, computer...etc. Then around 2 I went to my brother's boring soccer game. They won 3-1 w.e. don't care. Then at 4 I got my hair cut. It's shorter by like 3-4 inches. It's less annoying and just......well different. Then at 8 we picked up jesse and went to the movies. We waited for jane, jorge, nick, cassie, and kasey. We saw Scary Movie 3...it was stupid but hysterical. OMG I laughed so hard. The only thing was I hadn't eaten all day. I barely ate dinner and I didn't buy any popcorn, soda or candy. I just couldn't eat today. I don't know why. I'm slipping into what I did last year. I just couldn't take it tonight. Just all the pain and just.....::sigh::......cassie and kelly know what I'm talking about. Yeahhh, when I got home I came online and talked to them. I got some of my emotions out really. Yeahh shed a few tears, but then I felt like driving a knife through my heart. But as I said to cassie I wouldn't feel anything. I'll update tomorrow.....I can't type anymore. I need some sleep.....
Right now.....I just wanna |die|