rant
so...it really depresses me when I know that...pretty much everyone I know gets to have fun and do whatever the fuck they want whenever they want...and I either have to work my ass off, bow to the fucking whims of my mom...or just sit at home and do nothing because i have a grand total of two friends who don't want to see me all the time because hey, they have other friends. because every fucking person that they thought was their friend didn't betray them.
fuck you guys.
i'm starting to hate everyone that has ever been in my life. everyone who told me they'd always be there for me. everyone who has hurt me.
none of you deserve the lives that you have. you all deserve an eternity of hell for treating people the way that you do. especially someone who's already so fucked up and untrusting.
i'm constantly depressed. there has been one person that has made me not depressed. and it sucks because almost everytime that i'm not with them...it comes back. and i hate that. i want to change it...and i'm trying to. it's a slow, painful process. extremely slow. so slow that so far, nothing's happened.
i don't want to spend tonight cleaning my house, and tomorrow night wishing that i had people to hang out with.
i just want to fucking move to college. get the fuck away from this place. make some new friends. people who will actually be there for me...since the kids who get accepted to new college are actually down to earth, nice people. they're genuine. you don't need to wear a mask at new college, like i've found so many of you do just to make friends.
i've seen what's under those masks. and it's hideous. how people can still stand to hang out with you guys is amazing.
oh wait. you're all the same.
fuck you, pinellas kids.
yes, all of you.
every single two sided, back stabbing, hypocritical person that exists. fuck you.
i laugh at your misfortune of thinking that you need a huge group of friends to be happy. thinking that you have to do something every night. hanging out with people that you say are assholes. or did you guys do that to make me feel better?
whatever. i'm over it. i'm moving away in a month, and i don't have to speak to or see any of you ever again.
and that makes me the fucking happiest person ever.
i deserve better than all of your bullshit games.
Y
Catie.
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I'd also like to thank my fucking mother for making my life even more fucking difficult than it already is. i need a fucking car of my own so i can just leave this fucking house whenever i want. i'm grounded for a week because i forgot to let the damn cat out of her cage. i came home for lunch to do that. she's such a fucking retard.
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fuck you guys.
i'm starting to hate everyone that has ever been in my life. everyone who told me they'd always be there for me. everyone who has hurt me.
none of you deserve the lives that you have. you all deserve an eternity of hell for treating people the way that you do. especially someone who's already so fucked up and untrusting.
i'm constantly depressed. there has been one person that has made me not depressed. and it sucks because almost everytime that i'm not with them...it comes back. and i hate that. i want to change it...and i'm trying to. it's a slow, painful process. extremely slow. so slow that so far, nothing's happened.
i don't want to spend tonight cleaning my house, and tomorrow night wishing that i had people to hang out with.
i just want to fucking move to college. get the fuck away from this place. make some new friends. people who will actually be there for me...since the kids who get accepted to new college are actually down to earth, nice people. they're genuine. you don't need to wear a mask at new college, like i've found so many of you do just to make friends.
i've seen what's under those masks. and it's hideous. how people can still stand to hang out with you guys is amazing.
oh wait. you're all the same.
fuck you, pinellas kids.
yes, all of you.
every single two sided, back stabbing, hypocritical person that exists. fuck you.
i laugh at your misfortune of thinking that you need a huge group of friends to be happy. thinking that you have to do something every night. hanging out with people that you say are assholes. or did you guys do that to make me feel better?
whatever. i'm over it. i'm moving away in a month, and i don't have to speak to or see any of you ever again.
and that makes me the fucking happiest person ever.
i deserve better than all of your bullshit games.
Y
Catie.
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I'd also like to thank my fucking mother for making my life even more fucking difficult than it already is. i need a fucking car of my own so i can just leave this fucking house whenever i want. i'm grounded for a week because i forgot to let the damn cat out of her cage. i came home for lunch to do that. she's such a fucking retard.
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