Please let me breath your choking me...this is my fault downward I fall, My minds slipping away
You say I'm babyed, spoiled, and when something doesnt go my way I'm not happy.
Well I guess you dont know me nearly as much as you thought you did. It seems like nothing Ever goes my way. I just try to deal with what I have. Thats one thing Ive learned from this life of mine...Try to deal with what you have. Ive also learned that you cant always trust the people you thought you could.
Friends are my life. They make me who I am. They help me make wise decisions and I would like to think that they will always be there for me when I need them. Ive always thought of myself to be smart when it comes to making good close friends. But this time your really proving me to be wrong. I miss it being 'my girlies'. It seems like it hasnt been that way in f o r e v e r. It seems like we are slowly drifting apart...me and you. I dont want this to happen. I want to fix this before its too late.
So it isnt a real update until we hear about some kind of boy youve had you eye only lately. This time he is really something. The way he makes me feel. HE LIKES AND ENJOYS THE COMPANY OF MY FRIENDS. Thats big to me. He is talented...soo talented..it amazes me everytime. He makes me angry sometimes. But who doesnt really? he is no 'Him' but i like him a lot and he really gets my mind off of the days things going on. Lets try not mess anything up with this one Kels.
Im scared. REALLY scared this time. I know this happeneds often, but this time its different. This summer, i'll probably be spending A LOT of time at my dads. My brothers are really going to need me. Im really going to need them too. At least he isnt going to have much pain. I just wish there was a better way. ughh...im not even going to get into this..there is nothing i can say or do to help him.
My one wish in life is for him to be healthy.
I dont think that is so much to ask for. I have a lot thrown at me and some how I deal with it. But for some reason I cant get over this one for the life of me. I hate seeing him like this. ugh..
Softball's going good. But my hand is a bitch. I dont want it to be over with but i feel like my hand is never going to get better.
oh well....there are bigger problems in life. The other day me Jaci and Gahan walked into the mens bathroom and the ump for our game was taking a piss..it was soo funny.
Oh and Im sick with the flu, it sucks ass!