just forget it.
soo last night. i couldnt stop crying. i noticed how i just wasnt happy anymore. and nothing seemed to make me happy. everythings slowly winding down to the way it was. but this time...im resorting to things i swore i wouldnt turn too.
im just looking for someone that cares about me. im looking for comfort. and ive seem to lost it all. my eyes cant cry anymore. i tried to call someone last night but she didnt answer. i didnt want to go to him. but i figured out the hard way hes really the only one that listens...soo here i am back in the same place. looking for someone to love me. but this time i keep coming out empty handed. maybe i need to stop searching. stop trying to find someone. i just want to be done with people. the people here at least.
i wish i could get away for a while. just soo i can calm down. i know im over reacting but when you feel like your heart is breaking from being alone what else are you suppose to do. i know im gonna wake up tomorrow morning and think to myself im soo stupid for ever thinking that in the first place, but tomorrow night i know all these thoughts will creep back into my head. I just need to be happy. I just need someone. but that seems a lil too hard to comprehend for some people. some people will keep beating me down. keep bringing me down.
but im nice. i dont blame them. i forgive them. i dont hold grudges. i forgive i just never forget.
love arica.
maybe if you cared enough to see through me. you would see a girl far beyond the make up and the pretty smiles...but someone breaking down and crying out for help.
im just looking for someone that cares about me. im looking for comfort. and ive seem to lost it all. my eyes cant cry anymore. i tried to call someone last night but she didnt answer. i didnt want to go to him. but i figured out the hard way hes really the only one that listens...soo here i am back in the same place. looking for someone to love me. but this time i keep coming out empty handed. maybe i need to stop searching. stop trying to find someone. i just want to be done with people. the people here at least.
i wish i could get away for a while. just soo i can calm down. i know im over reacting but when you feel like your heart is breaking from being alone what else are you suppose to do. i know im gonna wake up tomorrow morning and think to myself im soo stupid for ever thinking that in the first place, but tomorrow night i know all these thoughts will creep back into my head. I just need to be happy. I just need someone. but that seems a lil too hard to comprehend for some people. some people will keep beating me down. keep bringing me down.
but im nice. i dont blame them. i forgive them. i dont hold grudges. i forgive i just never forget.
love arica.
maybe if you cared enough to see through me. you would see a girl far beyond the make up and the pretty smiles...but someone breaking down and crying out for help.