Nov 26, 2006 21:48
when everyone lies to you.
when you dont really have anyone.
It seems like I just dont have anyone anymore. I refuse to trust people. I dont care to listen to what anyone has to say. It just doesnt matter to me. I just want to leave. Get out of this place. Leave everyone behind, because I am tired of it all. Tired of fake people. Fake friends. People who only pretend to care...
If you dont care. Id rather hear that then sit here and believe you care thinking I have someone...when in reality you couldnt careless about anything I do.
What sucks the most is the only person you think cares. really hurt you. and its like your barred from ever talking to them again. I want to tell him. I want to talk to him about everything, but I do I know he isnt using that agaisnt me.
Im ready to be done. Done with all of it. Done with everyone.
Im just so fed up. Im giving in to everything. Im just trying to find some type of affection from anyone I can. I wanna feel wanted. And Im giving in to things that draw someones attention to me. Im giving in.
Im breaking right in front of you. But you dont seem to have the time to help me.
look in my eyes. Its deeper then you would ever imagine
THis smile is fake. BUt you wouldnt know the difference.
love arica.