Financial Woe, trouble with Hos, and Something else that rhymes with "O"
To be brief I will just say student loans, financial aid office, and buerocracy are not my favorite things right now. Why would a loan officer from a given financial institution mandate you apply for a years worth of loans, while the school they are servicing only processes loans on a per semester basis, making the intial sum awarded for the etnire year a gross over estimate for one summer session, forcing the educational facility to tell said financial institution to cut the loan by two thirds. I ask you this in conjuction with the following, why would these two institution then proceed as if it was business as normal without notifying the loan recipient that his funds have all but disappeared and he/she can no longer pay for his/her current semester of school? Assuming then that each institution, financial and educational, sees nothing wrong at all with not notify the youth who is so intent on getting his/her education, why would each instituion not find it in their respective best interest to say "Ëxcuse me youth yearning to be educated, we think since we have cut your funds, you should probably apply for a new loan, since after all you have gone to the trouble of registering for this semester and rearranging your whole life to accomodate your new course schedule." Doesn't that make for sound business? If no one tells me I need to fill out a new loan application, then I can not pay for school. Forget about how that fucks me, it means the bank and university are both out a few thousand $$. Forget about my betterment, don't they want my money? Afterall, that is what higher education has become, business. Anyway on to other topics that do not drive me to such anger...
Julia doesn't shave her legs. I see nothing wrong with a lady who doesn't shave her legs. Hell I encourage it, why should women have to bow to trends and or the preferences of the male dominated society we live in. That said, all those none shavers out there can keep your furry limbs away from me. While I see nothing wrong with it, I find unshaved legs very unattractive so shaggy shins shall not be rubbing against my own hair legs any time soon.
Meredith is becoming cooler to me by the day but I am afraid that trying to follow through with anything more than friendship would be a violation. It isn't like we have talked enough for me to be stuck in friend mode as yet, I just feel like she is very comfortable with the unthreatening idea of Mike her pal from class who she can bitch about professors with. I think pressing the issue at all, even asking for her number would betray that notion. I could very well ask her for her number, and I think plausibly have it seem in a vein of strictly scholastic level, but I would know otherwise. I don't know if I want to do that and ruin the current comfort zone we both have in our two shared classes.
Meredith seems smart, down to earth, and very chill. I like her alot and I am super attracted to her. Adding to my confusion about her is Meg. Meg is giving me more vibes than Meredith and while I would love to try and take each one out a few times I worry about complications since we all share our modernism class in the morning.
Meg missed class yesterday but then I bumped into her, not literally, later in the day as she was leaving campus. She looked good. I want to call her this weekend but have been advised not too by outside parties. They seem to think calling her this weekend makes me seem desperate. I am not desperate, I am anxious. I want to get to know her more. I do not have romantic feelings for her, or any of these girls as of yet, but I am intrigued by her. I have a weird feeling of comfort around her, well comfort plus awkward "don't do anything wrong, be smart, make this girl like you" feelings. Everytime we talk I don't like leaving her, I feel like every short conversation is unfairly cut shorter by our responsibilities. I want to see her outside of school when we don't have to rush off to another class or work. I also have a weird feeling of it being ok for me to hold her hand or hug her. I mean, when we are walking I feel like I should be holding her hand, when we part i feel like I should hug her. Let me explain, it is not a I want to jump her feeling, it isn't a hey schmoopsy PDA thing, and it isn't that I am a touchy feely guy, it is something else. It feels like, at least to me, holding her hand should be normal. I don't know maybe it is the way she carries herself coupled with how "comfortable" I feel during the few minutes we spend together, but I feel as though she is inviting me to hold hand or something, or walk down the hallway rubbing her shoulders as if she is my best female friend and it would be completely ok if I were to do either one of those things. Speaking of her shoulders, she was wearing a pink shirt yesterday that was "strapless", I don't want to say halter top because that conjures thoughts of sluttiness, it was a nice pink top that revealed her upper back, shoulders, and having her hair up exposed a tattoo on the back of her neck that I hadn't seen before. A woman's neck is the front line between her body and soul(Al/Milton ?) and hers is beautiful. I have noted one possible problem with Meg in addition to her smoking- a WWJD? bracelet. What Would Jesus Do? bible freak? Doesn't seem likely. AA? I think that might be a little more up her alley, although I must admit i really know very little about her alley. Oh well.
no proof reading again, I hope you had fun struggling through my stream of conciousness.....the biological equivalent of eating lots of chocolate....
Julia doesn't shave her legs. I see nothing wrong with a lady who doesn't shave her legs. Hell I encourage it, why should women have to bow to trends and or the preferences of the male dominated society we live in. That said, all those none shavers out there can keep your furry limbs away from me. While I see nothing wrong with it, I find unshaved legs very unattractive so shaggy shins shall not be rubbing against my own hair legs any time soon.
Meredith is becoming cooler to me by the day but I am afraid that trying to follow through with anything more than friendship would be a violation. It isn't like we have talked enough for me to be stuck in friend mode as yet, I just feel like she is very comfortable with the unthreatening idea of Mike her pal from class who she can bitch about professors with. I think pressing the issue at all, even asking for her number would betray that notion. I could very well ask her for her number, and I think plausibly have it seem in a vein of strictly scholastic level, but I would know otherwise. I don't know if I want to do that and ruin the current comfort zone we both have in our two shared classes.
Meredith seems smart, down to earth, and very chill. I like her alot and I am super attracted to her. Adding to my confusion about her is Meg. Meg is giving me more vibes than Meredith and while I would love to try and take each one out a few times I worry about complications since we all share our modernism class in the morning.
Meg missed class yesterday but then I bumped into her, not literally, later in the day as she was leaving campus. She looked good. I want to call her this weekend but have been advised not too by outside parties. They seem to think calling her this weekend makes me seem desperate. I am not desperate, I am anxious. I want to get to know her more. I do not have romantic feelings for her, or any of these girls as of yet, but I am intrigued by her. I have a weird feeling of comfort around her, well comfort plus awkward "don't do anything wrong, be smart, make this girl like you" feelings. Everytime we talk I don't like leaving her, I feel like every short conversation is unfairly cut shorter by our responsibilities. I want to see her outside of school when we don't have to rush off to another class or work. I also have a weird feeling of it being ok for me to hold her hand or hug her. I mean, when we are walking I feel like I should be holding her hand, when we part i feel like I should hug her. Let me explain, it is not a I want to jump her feeling, it isn't a hey schmoopsy PDA thing, and it isn't that I am a touchy feely guy, it is something else. It feels like, at least to me, holding her hand should be normal. I don't know maybe it is the way she carries herself coupled with how "comfortable" I feel during the few minutes we spend together, but I feel as though she is inviting me to hold hand or something, or walk down the hallway rubbing her shoulders as if she is my best female friend and it would be completely ok if I were to do either one of those things. Speaking of her shoulders, she was wearing a pink shirt yesterday that was "strapless", I don't want to say halter top because that conjures thoughts of sluttiness, it was a nice pink top that revealed her upper back, shoulders, and having her hair up exposed a tattoo on the back of her neck that I hadn't seen before. A woman's neck is the front line between her body and soul(Al/Milton ?) and hers is beautiful. I have noted one possible problem with Meg in addition to her smoking- a WWJD? bracelet. What Would Jesus Do? bible freak? Doesn't seem likely. AA? I think that might be a little more up her alley, although I must admit i really know very little about her alley. Oh well.
no proof reading again, I hope you had fun struggling through my stream of conciousness.....the biological equivalent of eating lots of chocolate....