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So latly Ive been really annoyed. I feel like Im being taken advanged of and i hate it. I always give everybody rides and they never give me gas money ro even a simple thank you. I took my roomate Deedee aka Mama D to her sisters basketball game at Auburn High School and I thought why not get out for a bit. So we went and she barley even talked to me while we were there, only when we got something to eat and to tell me something but even then she was either on her cell phone or talking to somebody else. It upset me but i figured well maybe she hasnt seen them in a awhile so whatever i mean we live together so it seems were always talking to eachother. So then we leave and we get freakin lost. Somehow we end up in Onodaga county because mama d thought itd be a great idea if we went straight becasue thats pratcially the way we went but little did she know we took a few turns and she was on her cell the whole time. So we end up Onodaga County then find a sign to Skinaleas and find our way back from there. Took forever to get back. Then, when we got back she gets on her phone and just goes in her room. Doesnt even say thanks for taken me or thanks for comming with me. Do I expect too much people? And Jo Anne, shes drivin me up a freakin wall latly.. asks me one day to go pick her up cuz she doesnt want to wait a half hour for the bus. I dont know maybe a vacation would do some good. Get out for a bit. Maybe I should just drop college and become a starving artist. Then cut my ear off and sell it and my organs on the black market for art supplies. ha what a life that would be. I know imk too nice and i hate it. sometimes. I mean, is it really THAT hard to help out take care of a guina pig? It would be soo nice if for once just for once she would clean Gizs cage out or help offer to buy Giz food or something. Yea, I know its not that expensive but its just the point of the thing. She only really pays attention to Giz when somebody new comes so then she can show Giz off to them. Yea, she bought Giz but Im the one taking care of her. Sometimes Jo Anne askes if i need help but I just shrug it off and say no because why start now? As much as it is aganist my mom idea right now, once i get a job hopefully working nights, will get me out so that it wont feel like were always on top of eachother all the time. I dont know I really honestly dont know what to do. I guess theres some party that this guy that Jo Anne works with is having and she wants me to go. She told me the other night repeatedly that when we go she wants to get me trasted to see what I look like and told her im like no im not going to get trashed at somebodys house that I dont know excesally if im driving then im not gunna drink and shes like then ill drive back and im like yea no nobody drives tempy but me. and she jsut kept saying a few more times i wanna get you trashed and shed chuckle as shes saying this and in all seriousness i was like no im not going to get trashed at somebodys house i dont even know im much more of a responsible drinker. I dont think im gunna go though. Just not up to it these days. Its funny, you think college students would want to always go to parties when ive found out that are some who would rather just hang out. crazy. well, i better go. got a early class. o well i guess. Im hopin to go to the Y for a bit saturday..go for a swim. I miss being in the water. i miss you stephy and andrea.
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i dont know what i want to do with my life. i need help...poll:what can you see me doing?
- fashion
- art director
- graphic design (maybe someday andrea and me could have our own business)
- art thereapist
- photographer

its hard because ive been really getting into fashion latly but i have no sense of style and i love kids and i want to help them but then again working in a fashion magizine in NYC doesnt sound to bad either. hmmmm

my roomate jo anne swears that i belong in an iPod commercial