fucked up
today was a very fucked up day! well on the way to band practice my mom car ran out of gas right outside the house. my best friend simone had a nice lady take her to go get some gas. came back with the gas, and it was funny cause all these woman not knowing what the hell we were doing(had a man come down stairs and yet he didn't
know what the hell he was doing) keisha looked in my purse i had on me and found an tinny toothbrush in there, an she was like hey imma try to use this. the funny thing is that the shit actually worked out lol! simone had the gas poring it into my moms car, and keisha had the toothbrush (keeping the hole open). but she still didn't have enough gas in her car, so we stoped by simones house to get a couple of more bucks! an the we went to the gas station to get some more gas an then we were on are way to band practice!
ok now this is when shit started to go wrong, my mom told simone to len her five bucks!(ok now im like what the fuck you need five bucks for? dont you have money?) if my mom was in her right frame of mind i wouldn't even had mind, cause i know my mom would of paid simone back on the spot. so im telling her that i dont feel comfortable with her asking my best friend for money\my mom not being all the way there ya know? so really im like what do you need with it? . so shes all telling me, none of your business, so i ask her again. then she tells me to shut the fuck up, so i was like oh no shes not going to talk to me that way(an i know my temper). so i went off on her in the car with simone an keisha. then she starts talking about my dad being in the hospital, so im like bitch you lost your mind, that shit really got to me. man i swear if my friends wouldint had been in the car i would of fucked my mom up so bad, she would of crashed the car. we probaly would of both died. but i would of fucked her up really badly!
in on top of that i dont like feeling like im constantly begging someone to give me an answer, on rather they like me or not. its just alot of shit going on at once right now. at the most right now, i need someone to comfort me, and just hold me. in it seems im in lost times right now, an i cant even give love out when im feeling it the most.
i wish ill die, an know one would know about it. i feel like i dont need to be here, like its not meant for me to. im hurting slowly and badly at the same time. things are going to hell right now.
know what the hell he was doing) keisha looked in my purse i had on me and found an tinny toothbrush in there, an she was like hey imma try to use this. the funny thing is that the shit actually worked out lol! simone had the gas poring it into my moms car, and keisha had the toothbrush (keeping the hole open). but she still didn't have enough gas in her car, so we stoped by simones house to get a couple of more bucks! an the we went to the gas station to get some more gas an then we were on are way to band practice!
ok now this is when shit started to go wrong, my mom told simone to len her five bucks!(ok now im like what the fuck you need five bucks for? dont you have money?) if my mom was in her right frame of mind i wouldn't even had mind, cause i know my mom would of paid simone back on the spot. so im telling her that i dont feel comfortable with her asking my best friend for money\my mom not being all the way there ya know? so really im like what do you need with it? . so shes all telling me, none of your business, so i ask her again. then she tells me to shut the fuck up, so i was like oh no shes not going to talk to me that way(an i know my temper). so i went off on her in the car with simone an keisha. then she starts talking about my dad being in the hospital, so im like bitch you lost your mind, that shit really got to me. man i swear if my friends wouldint had been in the car i would of fucked my mom up so bad, she would of crashed the car. we probaly would of both died. but i would of fucked her up really badly!
in on top of that i dont like feeling like im constantly begging someone to give me an answer, on rather they like me or not. its just alot of shit going on at once right now. at the most right now, i need someone to comfort me, and just hold me. in it seems im in lost times right now, an i cant even give love out when im feeling it the most.
i wish ill die, an know one would know about it. i feel like i dont need to be here, like its not meant for me to. im hurting slowly and badly at the same time. things are going to hell right now.