Summer
AHH so the grad party went well on saturday.... The family is crazier and bigger than ever! hmm its been nice lately besides being jealous of the fam being in New Hampshire while I'm stuck here working! But I get to hangout with the friends and the boy at night so its not too bad I guess...I have been thinking a lot lately...about growing up. haha funny when I see these nice college boys, polite and sweet and so I don't know..so different than the scum I met last summer...sitting by the river with them is so funny and even lookin at their stupid cars...way diff than the stupid parties we'd go to at joes aunts or cliffs or w.e .... ah its crazy cuz I feel like a few months ago I thought all I wanted to do was get away from here. Go far away and meet new people who wouldnt know me...my mistakes...my misfortunes I guess you could call them? ....w.e happened to me...but then I meet tim and spill my guts on like the second date and he doesnt care... It made me realize that getting away won't change me... trying to lie about life didn't help...accepting it and being honest...it actually makes you happy...even if it is here in stupid fairless hills or levittown..or in Bristol on the river haha:P Who coulda thought that I would spend tonight watching the O.C. with my boyfriend...gasp! lol three months ago I woulda laughed at that thought!