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I made a huge mistake... atleast i think i did, i just dont know anymore...
I was up all last night thinking and i didnt go to bed til 5 am... Therefor once again no school, havent been to school sense last friday... why is it so hard for me? Why dont i have any motivation?
I think im fighting off another cold... i need to eat better.
Im tired of being my size, i want to go on a diet... i want to go to the gym everyday and lose my tummy and fat, and i want to get stronger for the fire dept... yes i am very strong for a girl my age but i want to be stronger, i want to be able to run into a burning building and drag anyone of my familly out of there... my ultimate goal is to drag chip b like 20 feet... that man is BIG! but i <33 him!
I want to start over fresh... but then when i try, im always like "okay ill start tomorrow, its okay.. and then the next day.. oh well tomorrow will be the day i really start.. and then that day im like FUCK IT" I have no motivation unless someone is there guiding me through, and i cant do that.. i cant rely on other people my whole life. oh well ill think of something...
i sitll dont have a valentine... well, there is always next year :(
School from 8-2:30
Firehouse from 3:00-5:30
Picking up Patrick and going to drivers ed at 7:15
Driving hour from 7:45-8:45
Hopefully taking patrick to Papa Genos for his birthday
Then going to bed...
Fun huh? oh yah
Well thats it... leave love cuz i know you all love to! Goodnight my home boys and girls
I was up all last night thinking and i didnt go to bed til 5 am... Therefor once again no school, havent been to school sense last friday... why is it so hard for me? Why dont i have any motivation?
I think im fighting off another cold... i need to eat better.
Im tired of being my size, i want to go on a diet... i want to go to the gym everyday and lose my tummy and fat, and i want to get stronger for the fire dept... yes i am very strong for a girl my age but i want to be stronger, i want to be able to run into a burning building and drag anyone of my familly out of there... my ultimate goal is to drag chip b like 20 feet... that man is BIG! but i <33 him!
I want to start over fresh... but then when i try, im always like "okay ill start tomorrow, its okay.. and then the next day.. oh well tomorrow will be the day i really start.. and then that day im like FUCK IT" I have no motivation unless someone is there guiding me through, and i cant do that.. i cant rely on other people my whole life. oh well ill think of something...
i sitll dont have a valentine... well, there is always next year :(
School from 8-2:30
Firehouse from 3:00-5:30
Picking up Patrick and going to drivers ed at 7:15
Driving hour from 7:45-8:45
Hopefully taking patrick to Papa Genos for his birthday
Then going to bed...
Fun huh? oh yah
Well thats it... leave love cuz i know you all love to! Goodnight my home boys and girls