its 1am.
Just wrote this poem to release the pain. Hope I might be able to stop going into a panic now and sleep.
Bottled up in my head,
days fucked in your bed,
Finally brought to light,
These memories are pretty shite.
One by one the events, I remember, but I can't be bothered to care.
I was your toy, your hoe, your shag fucking doll! can't share.
First time in your car,
Classiest moment by far.
Pinned down and fucked,
Guess from then u were hooked.
To the feel of my skin,
Now all I feel is sin.
Why choose me?
Now I'll never be free,
Always feel your hard slamming shoves,
Bet you thought this was love?
You hurt me so bad,
Just to get a quick shag.
ripped my insides apart,
Your thrusts were so sharp.
I feel them all the time, day and night
Just in my head I know, but its such a fright
And the nightmares are worse,
The pain I wake up feeling is a curse.
I was just a child,
Held down, rape, defiled.
Shoved into, on sofas, up walls
Bashed and bruised, just from your balls.
Stop I'd scream!
You'd just laugh as u creamed,
Right inside me, in deep
It'd leak out, I'd weep.
Then got a point when I didn't struggle
Just let the blood puddle.
Hopelessly just go into shock
My whole body would rock -
And shake
I thought I would break.
Clean me up, cover it up so noone would see
No one would ever know but you or me.
So broken now I am,
From the memory of every slam.
See you hurt me bad,
I hurt myself now, I'm so mad.
Lost my mind I did,
The memories just couldn't be hid.
I'll starve myself now, down to the bone.
Rid myself of the time your fuck made me moan.
You just smirked and pushed inside me more deeply,
Told me 'see you love it really'.
Called me a whore,
Now I can't take it no more!!!
Slit my wrists!
At the end of my wits.
I'll be gone soon I hope
Sorry my love I couldn't cope.
So farewell I bid, cause of what he did!
I couldn't stay with my life that I hate,
See babygirl, I was a victim of rape.
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Bottled up in my head,
days fucked in your bed,
Finally brought to light,
These memories are pretty shite.
One by one the events, I remember, but I can't be bothered to care.
I was your toy, your hoe, your shag fucking doll! can't share.
First time in your car,
Classiest moment by far.
Pinned down and fucked,
Guess from then u were hooked.
To the feel of my skin,
Now all I feel is sin.
Why choose me?
Now I'll never be free,
Always feel your hard slamming shoves,
Bet you thought this was love?
You hurt me so bad,
Just to get a quick shag.
ripped my insides apart,
Your thrusts were so sharp.
I feel them all the time, day and night
Just in my head I know, but its such a fright
And the nightmares are worse,
The pain I wake up feeling is a curse.
I was just a child,
Held down, rape, defiled.
Shoved into, on sofas, up walls
Bashed and bruised, just from your balls.
Stop I'd scream!
You'd just laugh as u creamed,
Right inside me, in deep
It'd leak out, I'd weep.
Then got a point when I didn't struggle
Just let the blood puddle.
Hopelessly just go into shock
My whole body would rock -
And shake
I thought I would break.
Clean me up, cover it up so noone would see
No one would ever know but you or me.
So broken now I am,
From the memory of every slam.
See you hurt me bad,
I hurt myself now, I'm so mad.
Lost my mind I did,
The memories just couldn't be hid.
I'll starve myself now, down to the bone.
Rid myself of the time your fuck made me moan.
You just smirked and pushed inside me more deeply,
Told me 'see you love it really'.
Called me a whore,
Now I can't take it no more!!!
Slit my wrists!
At the end of my wits.
I'll be gone soon I hope
Sorry my love I couldn't cope.
So farewell I bid, cause of what he did!
I couldn't stay with my life that I hate,
See babygirl, I was a victim of rape.
Posted via m.livejournal.com.